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Smudgedlines

I like wine.
Jan 23, 2020
148
I swear that this will be the end of me. I lie awake for hours then spend all day inhaling strong coffee just to survive.
If I drink alcohol - I can't sleep
If I don't - I can't sleep

I just play the previous day over and over and over or my worries over and over.
I end up on my phone, on here, sometimes watching some poor souls in the last moments of their lives. Then i definitely can't sleep. Last night I was listening to a mosquito all night wondering which bit of me it'd be attacking. It was my leg. I hope the bastard is dead from alcohol poisoning.

If I CTB I'd probably still wake up. Lying there being preserved by SN for eternal insomnia. Probably chuck my ex cockface boss in for good measure. I'm so tired.
 
Wayfaerer

Wayfaerer

JFMSUF
Aug 21, 2019
1,938
I've been super stressed out over these past 2 days and I haven't slept much or eaten anything.
 
Amumu

Amumu

Ctb - temporary solution for a permanent problem
Aug 29, 2020
2,623
Maybe try antihistamine once a week, sleeping pills once a week, and walk a little bit. Take care
Alcohol makes insomnia worse, of course.
 

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