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Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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This is the way that I've always felt towards existence, I've never wanted to be here and never could do, and I've always found the thought of being dead to be so comforting, in fact it's the only thing that could ever be close to a relief. Of course I just believe that we cease to exist once we are gone and to me this is something so beautiful. The only thing that could ever possibly be ideal to me is being completely unaware of this world and never having to exist for another day. But sadly I'm still here and of course suicide is purposely made so difficult by this pro suffering society that is so focused on prolonging our torment and keeping us trapped here in this unwanted existence.
But of course the only peace could lie in the absence of everything as the reality is that life itself will always be the true problem. We were forced here so unnecessarily and unfairly, trapped in a cycle of enduring endless days where we can potentially suffer to unimaginable amounts. All that life is, is just a way to cause harm to existing beings all for no purpose, where we exist just to deteriorate and die and it's undeniable that life is something so incredibly useless that we would had been better off without. This is true because if someone never exists then they never have any awareness of this, they never have any problems to be burdened with and I consider that to be what is the most ideal, to never be brought here at all. And to die is just returning to that state of non existence which is why I feel so comforted by the thought of being dead. To exist means to suffer and I see choosing to exit as being the way to set ourselves free from something so harmful and achieve true peace, that cannot be found in this world, so therefore only those who die are the true fortunate ones as they don't have to put up with something so worthless as life which is just an unfortunate consequence of evolution in the first place.
It's certainly true that there is no comfort or relief to be found in this world, I mean how could there be in something so awful as life. Even temporary sleep offers no relief as long as the chance of waking the next day is there, as waking up and realising that I'm still here really is such a terrible thing. The only thing that could ever be close to being positive about all this, is that someday this life will long be forgotten about no matter what, with us finally being at rest and all of our problems finally solved. To me this is perfection.
But of course the only peace could lie in the absence of everything as the reality is that life itself will always be the true problem. We were forced here so unnecessarily and unfairly, trapped in a cycle of enduring endless days where we can potentially suffer to unimaginable amounts. All that life is, is just a way to cause harm to existing beings all for no purpose, where we exist just to deteriorate and die and it's undeniable that life is something so incredibly useless that we would had been better off without. This is true because if someone never exists then they never have any awareness of this, they never have any problems to be burdened with and I consider that to be what is the most ideal, to never be brought here at all. And to die is just returning to that state of non existence which is why I feel so comforted by the thought of being dead. To exist means to suffer and I see choosing to exit as being the way to set ourselves free from something so harmful and achieve true peace, that cannot be found in this world, so therefore only those who die are the true fortunate ones as they don't have to put up with something so worthless as life which is just an unfortunate consequence of evolution in the first place.
It's certainly true that there is no comfort or relief to be found in this world, I mean how could there be in something so awful as life. Even temporary sleep offers no relief as long as the chance of waking the next day is there, as waking up and realising that I'm still here really is such a terrible thing. The only thing that could ever be close to being positive about all this, is that someday this life will long be forgotten about no matter what, with us finally being at rest and all of our problems finally solved. To me this is perfection.
