Impulsive OD

[kitty.iceFS]

i just impulsively overdosed on bunch of random medication in the house nd idk wut to do ngl
Idk why im posting here I just wish i could take it back

I wish i had talked to my mother instead, truly

 

[Sleeper System]

Yikes. If you regret it then starting vomiting it up.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

I'm really sorrry. Please call an ambulance and seek medical attention immdiately. It's not a waste of resources. Then tell the psychiatrist that you accdientally did it and are not suicidal unless you feel like taking treatment there.

 

[kitty.iceFS]

Yikes. If you regret it then starting vomiting it up.

I took them about an hour ago idk if there's any point now and i haven't ate for like 24 hours so im assuming it's probably being absorbed pretty quick so no point

 

[Sleeper System]

I took them about an hour ago idk if there's any point now and i haven't ate for like 24 hours so im assuming it's probably being absorbed pretty quick so no point

Maybe start heading to an ER so you can get immediate care if it comes to it.

 

[kitty.iceFS]

Maybe start heading to an ER so you can get immediate care if it comes to it.

im ngl, i really want to but I'm so terrified

 

[Sleeper System]

im ngl, i really want to but I'm so terrified

Your choice. If you want to try to ride it out then get comfortable and have a bucket handy.

 

[marksofdespair]

first and foremost how are you feeling?

 

[kitty.iceFS]

first and foremost how are you feeling?

Ngl absolutely terrible

 

[marksofdespair]

Ngl absolutely terrible

are you in a lot of pain? and where? do you feel like you're gonna pass out?!??!

 

[kitty.iceFS]

are you in a lot of pain? and where? do you feel like you're gonna pass out?!??!

I just feel heart palpitations mostly and im really cold when it was normal a bit ago and i drank warm water earlier fuck it's kicking in fuck fuck fuck fjck
im gonna take a shower
I don't wanna die

 

[marksofdespair]

I just feel heart palpitations mostly and im really cold when it was normal a bit ago and i drank warm water earlier fuck it's kicking in fuck fuck fuck fjck
im gonna take a shower
I don't wanna die

some of the heart palps might be from anxiety so try to pull yourself together. do you feel dizzy at all, are you in pain? have you vomited? if you really really start feeling bad calling 911 might be best. what all did you take... maybe its not deadly?

 

[kitty.iceFS]

some of the heart palps might be from anxiety so try to pull yourself together. do you feel dizzy at all, are you in pain? have you vomited? if you really really start feeling bad calling 911 might be best. what all did you take... maybe its not deadly?

i do feel dizzy and honestly nauseous I haven't vomited but I keep feeling like I will, im gonna go to college then see how that goes
mostly I just feel really weird
Also I don't even know what I took just know that I took 27 of 3 different meds (not mine)

 

[U. A.]

hey it might be a good idea to find out what you took. just because you can "function" doesn't mean your body isn't struggling. if you didn't vomit there's a chance you are being injured internally and the more time goes by, the worse.
i don't know, you might end up fine; people have taken sn and not gone to the hospital and been "ok" [whatever that means] but you really might want to avoid going anywhere or doing anything...

 

[dalemar]

Good luck OP.
OD is not recommended, but I hope you find your peace.

 

[Forveleth]

Been following this for a few hours. Just wanted to check in and see how you are doing OP. Give us an update when you can.

 

[kitty.iceFS]

hey update, home from college
before i left - i found out that 2 of the 3 medication were the same,just different dosage - one dosage that were significant higher dosage
so I've taken a quite a large amount of that medication all together then and the other medication which is more dangerous, didn't take so much of that and was slightly staggered, so im hoping that's gonna be ok…for now..

I haven't gone to get help, nobody apart from here and a boy I speak to knows that I've ODed and honestly I don't think I will tell anyone unless I get extremely worried and rn im not so worried but rather anxious ?

so far my symptoms has been extreme nausea, a slight stomach pain, dizziness but im not so sure if that's because I haven't had anything to eat since Sunday night
my heartrate feels strange tho, higher than it should be ngl and my body's been feeling super off the entire Day and my heart lowk feels odd aswell - extremely odd
honestly I don't feel great at all, haven't even been to focus on my work at all today, absolutely shattered and I kept falling asleep in class and almost missed my class bc I fell asleep but idk if that's relevant ? dunno if it's making me sleepy.

i haven't vomited so i hope that's a good sign and not a sign of being injured internally…….But idunno

Im gonna go to training and see how that goes, if i feel fine i think I'll have ridden it out and an ER visit definitely won't be necessary

i am scared though but i think I'll be okay..? i really am hoping i dont get any damage it would suck
oh yeah, a girl noted out that I keep going to extremely pale to extremely flushed to pale then repeat

 

[kitty.iceFS]

Sorry posting on here again but im lowkey freaking tf out because
when I stand I get extremely dizzy and my vision goes black for a moment and my heartrate gets really fast, and my heartrate lowk feels unstable rn

I don't know what to do im scared and honestly I feel stuck because this doesn't feel serious and like I haven't threw up or anything else , my heart just feels really really off and honestly im lowk sweating to much but idk
I'm just freaking out about the heart bc my heartrate is always low cuz im an athletic but idunno how cardiovascular stuff works so maybe im overreacting
Do I go to the ER because im freaking tf out and I just want a peace of mind but then again I only took 27 which isnt rly thst much but then idk im panicking tf out
Oh also note I have had a meal so this is not cuz of lack of food

…does anyone wanna talk so I can distract myself from this agony cause I truly wish I could take it all back

 

[boddibo]

You should go to the ER, even if you 'only took' 27, it doesn't mean it can't damage your body,
You are not feeling well at the moment, it's making you anxious, and it would reassure you,
Take care of you, iced

 

[kitty.iceFS]

Maybe I will… but I don't know, I need to work up the courage to tell my parents what I've done…which honestly the thought of it paralyses me, I don't think I can do it at all
I'm gonna just go through with it overnight, and see how it goes but im so scared sorry im not making things any better for me but im just venting and im in genuine agony because im so scared like really scared that im just stuck, i dont know what will happen from here which is making things worse

Ok plan is, ride this out overnight, maybe not sleep just incase then go to college in the morning and see how it goes..?
Although I do really want to go to the ER I just don't know if I can stop being a coward

 

[boddibo]

It's okay to be scared. Drink water. Try to eat as much as you possibly can. Try to sleep. Make yourself at ease even if it's hard.

edit: completely agree w/ @U. A.

 

[U. A.]

Flipping between flushing and pallor isn't nothing; blacking out when you stand up isn't nothing.
This is not minor, but as much as I hate to say you are also right to be weary of the hospital. They don't have the best streak of being kind to young women in distress.

Throwing up wouldn't just be a sign of injury, it's of your body rejecting the meds. Which it didn't, meaning they are still messing you up.
Depending what they are and the normal dosage you may need to make up a story if you didn't want to deal with possible psych involvement. They might assume you are lying though, I can't really advise on this.
But you don't sound well. I hope you are better now than your last message...

 

[kitty.iceFS]

honestly yeah:(
im just so scared, i just want to cry. i wish i could go to my mother right now because…things has just got a lot worse and it's putting me under major agony and anxiety

Logically, i know this isn't minor but I'm in such a conflicting position where this doesn't feel serious to me but i know logically I'm certain that I'm in a very dangerous spot right now cause even when im lying down my heart feels rapid, a slight movement, my chest hurts, particularly on the right side. dizziness has weirdly got worse, despite lying down. time is getting slower and confusing and holly, fuck all i am doing is trying to cope and praying to God because I've done a truly irreversible mistake, and it's the fact that I won't help myself because I'm a coward

my chest has been tightening off and on for this past hour snd it's stressing tf out of me, my right arm feels weird as well- idk what tf is going on but DUDE IM PANICKING I dont know what to do im so stressed out

Ok. Anyways the plan is still to ride this sheet out……im in so much agony though, emotionally and physically.
Sorry, no clue why I ranted, that was so unnecessary

gonna be honest, my heart feels like it's gonna give out.

update - I'm seriously considering calling 999 on myself

 

[marksofdespair]

honestly yeah:(
im just so scared, i just want to cry. i wish i could go to my mother right now because…things has just got a lot worse and it's putting me under major agony and anxiety

Logically, i know this isn't minor but I'm in such a conflicting position where this doesn't feel serious to me but i know logically I'm certain that I'm in a very dangerous spot right now cause even when im lying down my heart feels rapid, a slight movement, my chest hurts, particularly on the right side. dizziness has weirdly got worse, despite lying down. time is getting slower and confusing and holly, fuck all i am doing is trying to cope and praying to God because I've done a truly irreversible mistake, and it's the fact that I won't help myself because I'm a coward

my chest has been tightening off and on for this past hour snd it's stressing tf out of me, my right arm feels weird as well- idk what tf is going on but DUDE IM PANICKING I dont know what to do im so stressed out

Ok. Anyways the plan is still to ride this sheet out……im in so much agony though, emotionally and physically.
Sorry, no clue why I ranted, that was so unnecessary

gonna be honest, my heart feels like it's gonna give out.

update - I'm seriously considering calling 999 on myself

bless your heart :( i hope you can get stabilized and be okay. give us updates when you can regretting od is very normal

 

[socksnsandles]

meds are designed to not kill you. you prob just gave yourself liver damage and a 51 50 visit