I'm trapped on this planet

[sadsoul]

Is anyone else really limited when it comes to methods? I hate that I'm so young and still live with my parents, I feel like my freedom is so limited. I can't order anything, I can't be away from home for too long, I can't do anything without my parents noticing. The only viable methods for me would be hanging or jumping. But the problem with hanging is that I need to be home alone (which almost never happens) and overcoming the SI is difficult. The problem with jumping is that I don't know any accessible bridge that is definitely high enough and not too far away. It's really frustrating seeing so many people have easy access to methods. I wish I could just buy N at the local pharmacy and get it over with lol. I hate being trapped on this planet and not being able to do anything about it :/ I guess the only thing I can do right now is wait and hope that someday I get the chance to ctb.

 

[therhydler]

Is anyone else really limited when it comes to methods? I hate that I'm so young and still live with my parents, I feel like my freedom is so limited. I can't order anything, I can't be away from home for too long, I can't do anything without my parents noticing. The only viable methods for me would be hanging or jumping. But the problem with hanging is that I need to be home alone (which almost never happens) and overcoming the SI is difficult. The problem with jumping is that I don't know any accessible bridge that is definitely high enough and not too far away. It's really frustrating seeing so many people have easy access to methods. I wish I could just buy N at the local pharmacy and get it over with lol. I hate being trapped on this planet and not being able to do anything about it :/ I guess the only thing I can do right now is wait and hope that someday I get the chance to ctb.

I have a similar problem :/ though I had possibilities before when I lived alone, but after my first failed attempt I am crippled and my family is basically keeping me on suicide watch. I am really, really desperate to end it but it looks like my only reliable option will be hanging. I wish I had thought through my first attempt more, I didn't even know then about N, now I don't have the money or means to get it :( I feel completely trapped also

 

[sadsoul]

I have a similar problem :/ though I had possibilities before when I lived alone, but after my first failed attempt I am crippled and my family is basically keeping me on suicide watch. I am really, really desperate to end it but it looks like my only reliable option will be hanging. I wish I had thought through my first attempt more, I didn't even know then about N, now I don't have the money or means to get it :( I feel completely trapped also

I'm so sorry your attempt failed and that you're crippled now :( If I may ask, how did you attempt? It sucks that some of us have to live horrible lives without a way out. But I hope you can find your peace soon.

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

I feel trapped by my difficulty overcoming the fear/survival instinct. It's a wretched feeling. Knowing that I may have to ensure more failed attempts before I finally break free is beyond heart breaking at this point.

 

[therhydler]

I'm so sorry your attempt failed and that you're crippled now :( If I may ask, how did you attempt? It sucks that some of us have to live horrible lives without a way out. But I hope you can find your peace soon.

I ran in front of a speeding truck... guess it serves me right for getting other people into it :/ but at least the driver knows he didn't kill me and all the damage is reversible. I'll be fully fit in no time... (no I won't, hopefully I won't be here)

 

[Ella Disenchanted]

I ran in front of a speeding truck... guess it serves me right for getting other people into it :/ but at least the driver knows he didn't kill me and all the damage is reversible. I'll be fully fit in no time... (no I won't, hopefully I won't be here)

That's a ballsy thing to do. I wish I had some of that. My problems would be over.

 

[Amira]

Is anyone else really limited when it comes to methods? I hate that I'm so young and still live with my parents, I feel like my freedom is so limited. I can't order anything, I can't be away from home for too long, I can't do anything without my parents noticing. The only viable methods for me would be hanging or jumping. But the problem with hanging is that I need to be home alone (which almost never happens) and overcoming the SI is difficult. The problem with jumping is that I don't know any accessible bridge that is definitely high enough and not too far away. It's really frustrating seeing so many people have easy access to methods. I wish I could just buy N at the local pharmacy and get it over with lol. I hate being trapped on this planet and not being able to do anything about it :/ I guess the only thing I can do right now is wait and hope that someday I get the chance to ctb.

I totally understand you , now all CTB seems to be is just a fantasy. I wish I could just get my hands on it. Those people who have had the chance to attain N are blessed. I am still wondering why some havent CTB yet because I would have happyily drank the whole load as soon as I got it from the package because theres a huge guarentee it wounldn't fail or be very painful. To me N would be as good as winning the lottery.

 

[Eren]

I also live with my parents, I know how difficult it is to plan such a suicide, for example if I buy SN I do not know where to hide it

 

[furax53]

I have a similar problem :/ though I had possibilities before when I lived alone, but after my first failed attempt I am crippled and my family is basically keeping me on suicide watch. I am really, really desperate to end it but it looks like my only reliable option will be hanging. I wish I had thought through my first attempt more, I didn't even know then about N, now I don't have the money or means to get it :( I feel completely trapped also

if you do not mind talking about it, what did you use as a ctb method to fail and become disabled?

 

[therhydler]

That's a ballsy thing to do. I wish I had some of that. My problems would be over.

I actually did it because to me it seamed like the easiest... I would never ever be able to jump for example. And it was completely painless, I don't remember a thing. Of course the pain came after...

 

[therhydler]

if you do not mind talking about it, what did you use as a ctb method to fail and become disabled?

Truck :/

 

[furax53]

Truck :/

oh yes sorry for you i hope the next will be the good one and you're handicapping ah that she level?

 

[therhydler]

oh yes sorry for you i hope the next will be the good one and you're handicapping ah that she level?

sorry, don't think I understand the question...:)

 

[furax53]

sorry, don't think I understand the question...:)

excuse me I do all to the translator and I wanted to know you're handicapped ah it level of your body?

 

[therhydler]

excuse me I do all to the translator and I wanted to know you're handicapped ah it level of your body?

I broke my spine and leg but I am already after the operations and I am able to walk a bit

 

[sadsoul]

I totally understand you , now all CTB seems to be is just a fantasy. I wish I could just get my hands on it. Those people who have had the chance to attain N are blessed. I am still wondering why some havent CTB yet because I would have happyily drank the whole load as soon as I got it from the package because theres a huge guarentee it wounldn't fail or be very painful. To me N would be as good as winning the lottery.

Same, if I had N I'd be gone by tomorrow. Tbh at this point even SN would be as good as winning the lottery to me.

 

[furax53]

I broke my spine and leg but I am already after the operations and I am able to walk a bit

it's been a long time since you did ctb with a truck?

 

[therhydler]

it's been a long time since you did ctb with a truck?

nearly 2 months

 

[furax53]

nearly 2 months

I failed 2 ctb this summer and I was hospitalized and cons I did not have a sequel

 

[Bart]

i have the deer fear to overcome my basic instinct to survive.

 

[Amira]

I failed 2 ctb this summer and I was hospitalized and cons I did not have a sequel

What method did you use in your failed attempts?

 

[Shewaitsforme]

I was thinking last night about people who are trapped. Ive had to buy 250g of SN and if it works ill only have used 15g. Even if i halved the tub alot would be left over. Previoisly i bougt a 10litre nitrogen cylinder, its suggested only 2-5litres is required. Its a shame people cant just come and have whats left over obviously logistics and then becoming apart of that persons death would be a problem so i see why it wouldnt work but can you imagine it.

 

[furax53]

What method did you use in your failed attempts?

hanging

 

[divinized]

Yep. I'm pretty young so my parents would definitely know something's up if I suddenly ask them to take me somewhere in order to get what I need to ctb. If I order anything there's the risk of them getting the package or opening it before I get it. I feel stuck.

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I have a similar problem :/ though I had possibilities before when I lived alone, but after my first failed attempt I am crippled and my family is basically keeping me on suicide watch. I am really, really desperate to end it but it looks like my only reliable option will be hanging. I wish I had thought through my first attempt more, I didn't even know then about N, now I don't have the money or means to get it :( I feel completely trapped also

Same:( I'm an adult that's still living as a teenager. All I want is to ctb in peace. It sucks being this trapped.

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

I feel like a very old grandma who is tired and just wants peace in a teenager's body