Venting i'm so tired

[nikolaigogol]

i'm so tired of living. i hate everything i do. i hate my job, i hate eating, i hate sleeping, i hate everything i used to enjoy. i've been debating catching the bus for a while now and i think i've really hit rock bottom now. my finances are shit, all i am to my partner and my family is a burden, and everything i do is just one big embarrassment. i'm sitting out in -20°c weather with no coat to punish myself for being alive today. i just really want to go. i'm so tired.

 

[thefarter]

i feel that.
circumstances can change though.. what are ur dreams? do u have any that u wanna chase?

sorry i hope that doesn't come across as mean. but if you hate your job, (as annoying and difficult as it is) you can try to find another one that fits more with your life goal..

and about hating everything.. you can try therapy & meds..? or maybe even find new hobbies that you might enjoy more !

alsoooo about feeling like a burden.. that is genuinely ur mind playing tricks on you. i am 100000% certain that neither your partner or family feel like you're a burden.

 

[LonelyPrince]

i'm so tired of living. i hate everything i do. i hate my job, i hate eating, i hate sleeping, i hate everything i used to enjoy. i've been debating catching the bus for a while now and i think i've really hit rock bottom now. my finances are shit, all i am to my partner and my family is a burden, and everything i do is just one big embarrassment. i'm sitting out in -20°c weather with no coat to punish myself for being alive today. i just really want to go. i'm so tired.

I know it sounds hypocritical coming from someone like me but please don't punish yourself like that.
Life is shit. it's fucking terrible. it's not your fault for being thrown into this mess of a world and these circumstances. I don't know anything about you but I hope things will get better for you.
Whatever you choose to do i hope you peace and serenity. Just don't beat yourself up for being in tough spot..it's not worth it.

 

[unluckysadness]

I'm sorry for your situation but you don't have to punish yourself because being suicidal is already a punishment.
I wish you peace

 

[nikolaigogol]

i feel that.
circumstances can change though.. what are ur dreams? do u have any that u wanna chase?

sorry i hope that doesn't come across as mean. but if you hate your job, (as annoying and difficult as it is) you can try to find another one that fits more with your life goal..

and about hating everything.. you can try therapy & meds..? or maybe even find new hobbies that you might enjoy more !

alsoooo about feeling like a burden.. that is genuinely ur mind playing tricks on you. i am 100000% certain that neither your partner or family feel like you're a burden.

i don't really have any aspirations i want to chase. i feel like all of them were destroyed. i have no passion for anything, really.

as for my job, the job market is so awful here that finding a new job is like finding a needle in a haystack. it's near impossible. my current job is the only one that would hire me.

i've tried therapy, i've been on so many medications... nothing works. i feel like i'm just paying for nothing every time i go to a session or try a new medication.

my life is going nowhere at this point. I feel like such a burden. all i do is rely on everyone around me for support without being able to offer any.

I'm sorry for your situation but you don't have to punish yourself because being suicidal is already a punishment.
I wish you peace

i hope i find it soon.