Venting I’m so done

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It's all getting way too much for me. I've been in and out of recovery for a while but I feel like it's never going to get better. I have a twin sister who's so much better than me in every way. So you can imagine how rubbish I feel. How pathetic and ugly I am. I hate school. I don't have the motivation to do anything. If I really think about it I don't think I was ever better. No one ever looks at me. No one would care if I went (except my family, and I don't think that's enough to keep me here). I'd rather die than keep living like this. Life is unhappy. I wanted a new start but it never came. I don't think it ever will. I'm done. So done with it all.