Venting I’m so angry all the time

[willitpass]

I've become so bitter and jaded. I used to be so patient. So empathetic. I never used to feel anger. Now it seems to be my primary emotion. I hate how angry I am, yet after seeing how fucked this world can be I don't see how I could feel anything but.

I'm getting closer to the edge again. Getting so much fucking closer. If an infection doesn't overtake me soon I will self immolate. I can't live like this. What kind of life is it just being pissed off all the time?

 

[unluckysadness]

Sorry to hear that you're suffering so much. It's normal to be angry when you suffer all the time. I am angry too because of all this pain.
Self immolation is not recommended because it's excruciating, it takes time to kill and your SI / panic could kick you. I remember the case of Jonathan Destin (a french student who was victim of school bullying). He didn't die from the immolation but died years later in constant pain. I'm french too and it schocked me at the time bacause I was a victim of school bullying too.

 

[TAW122]

Yeah I've been angry at the world in general for a long, long time, though in the recent years while anger is less of a thing, I'm just focused on getting towards CTB and be ready for CTB if things don't go to plan or what I expected/hoped for.

 

[m4rius]

I'm having the opposite experience of you. I was always an angry, hateful person, mostly from the inside.

Through depression, I'm somehow becoming less angry, likely because depression is making me less emotional and more cerebral, strange... it's a welcome change though