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deep_end

How've you been?
Sep 9, 2023
47
Failure is my biggest fear, and it's really eating me up right now. I'm so afraid of failing my attempt, it is scaring the shit out of me right now. I was planning on shooting myself on Sunday but the idea of me missing and being in a much worse state petrifies me. I'm so so so so so afraid right now I'm going crazy. I've failed so much in my life I know I'm just going to mess it up or chicken out. I don't know what to do. I've become paranoid with these thoughts and everything is freaking me out right now I think I'm going through a panic attack.
 
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cloudforecast

cloudforecast

New Member
Nov 7, 2025
3
depends on the gun you're using, if it's a shotgun putting it in your mouth and pulling the trigger will absolutely do it, and honestly most guns will do it to. If you're that worried, you can buy a shotgun. Hope this helps your anxiety.
 
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deep_end

How've you been?
Sep 9, 2023
47
depends on the gun you're using, if it's a shotgun putting it in your mouth and pulling the trigger will absolutely do it, and honestly most guns will do it to. If you're that worried, you can buy a shotgun. Hope this helps your anxiety.
not a shotgun unfortunately. I could only buy a handgun at the moment. I'm picking it up tomorrow.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,056
I really understand, I find it so horrific and terrifying how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering, all I want is to never suffer again and I see so much cruelty in how the option of painless, guaranteed ways to permanently cease existing are denied.
 
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thisIsNotEnough

thisIsNotEnough

magical girl in the wrong world </3
Nov 8, 2025
43
There's always going to be some risk of an attempt failing, but it's probably best to do so when you're relatively calm so that you execute the plan as accurately as possible.

That being said, if you're actively having a panic attack or otherwise feeling unstable, it'd probably be good to think it through some more, whatever you end up deciding. I wish you the best and I hope you find peace <3
 
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death or death

death or death

Member
Nov 5, 2025
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As others said, it's best to attempt your plan in a calm mindset. Some recommend taking medication that can help to calm anxiety, but you should always know your own limits so that you don't take enough to impair your own judgment and potentially ruin your plans.
 
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looking4partner

Srry for bad social skills, likely autistic & ADHD
Oct 11, 2024
158
As others said, it's best to attempt your plan in a calm mindset. Some recommend taking medication that can help to calm anxiety, but you should always know your own limits so that you don't take enough to impair your own judgment and potentially ruin your plans.
But if people are calm, they probably won't be having ideation?

Tbh, I don't think anyone is calm when attempting. Unless they are lucky enough to have access to assisted euthanasia, MAID, etc. And even with that, there is probably a level of anxiety. But I am 99% sure it is much lower than with self-inflicted methods. Maybe drinking Nembutal is also the other most peaceful option.
 
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deathisapanacea

Student
Mar 10, 2025
188
I am also terrified of botching up a suicide attempt and making life way worse but if I had a gun with the decent caliber I wouldn't hesitate. Its the gold standard method. May be combine it with another method to further reduce the chance of failure.
 
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caquico

caquico

its/o/ver
May 19, 2024
7
Failure is my biggest fear, and it's really eating me up right now. I'm so afraid of failing my attempt, it is scaring the shit out of me right now. I was planning on shooting myself on Sunday but the idea of me missing and being in a much worse state petrifies me. I'm so so so so so afraid right now I'm going crazy. I've failed so much in my life I know I'm just going to mess it up or chicken out. I don't know what to do. I've become paranoid with these thoughts and everything is freaking me out right now I think I'm going through a panic attack.
Yeah failure is one of the main things that keep me from CTB. But if i had a gun i woudn't be so scared of failing. You know just put all your strenght on the trigger and it will be over. If you got like a 9mm it will work out. Godspeed.
 

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