I’m scared

[Lampost505!]

I'm scared of the process of suicide, I'm a retard who probably can't even do it right, and I'm scared to have my body limp or ragdolled but suicide is the only way, I have decided, everyday is a living hell and I'm alone in it with a mind that can't comprehend it so I don't know what to call that, I am tired of being a bitch, of being in this limbo, and I am indirectly harming others through day to day life and harming myself, I wish I wasn't here in the first place and I will forever be angry for being here, I have to go through with it

 

[zdeweilx]

Same here. I'm currently trying a long progressive method but it's fucking painful. Yet I'm too scared to pull the trigger, to swallow the pills or to jump from the window.

 

[Unlucky777]

I'm scared also. It's one of the hardest things I've ever attempted doing. Every bit of you wants to go but there's an opposing invisible force trying to stop you. I hope you find your peace in whatever form that may be

 

[cowboypants]

Same, no amount of reading and waiting reduced the fear for me

 

[In4rope]

It is perfectly normal to fear dead or failure

 

[dalemar]

I fear failure, not death tbh.