I’m not dead.

[Etherealdignity333]

I was seeing someone for a while. I had been honest with him about my SI, made the mistake of telling him about my N. Back in December I destroyed it, now the world is going to shit and he breaks up with me every month or so, and I wish I had never gotten rid of it.

now I see you can't even fucking get N anymore.

I should have just chugged the shit when I got the chance.

I hate my fucking life. I just wanted a peaceful way out. Now I have a fucking gun, which is pretty much the last thing I wanted to do.

 

[PrettyMoose]

I'm sorry for what you're going through. Don't blame yourself for destroying the N when it seemed like the right decision. You couldn't have predicted everything happening since then. I hope you're able to find peace.