My life is a complete mess. My son and I just got into a huge argument and now he's leaving. Probably to go drink and do drugs. Says he's not coming back and that I will never see my grandkids again. I'm just over everything. Everyone dies at some point, right? So why not now? And I'm taking a 6 month supply of Metoprolol. Should bottom my heart rate and blood pressure out in no time. So I'm not worried about it. I have nothing left anymore.
Please look into better methods than Metoprolol OD, but if you must do it rn, I recommend taking some alcohol/depressants with it. Please think about it, I wish you well on whatever you choose <3
Thank you for being so supportive. It's more than what I've gotten from my family. I don't think things will get better unfortunately. My husband has intervened today and I am now at his parents house for a family function. So no cbt at the moment. But I'm just not into being here anymore. I feel so lonely and depressed. I just make my family miserable and cause them pain. But I will have to make plans for another time. Soon. I just can't take it anymore.
