I'm crashing out bad right now. I'm always going to be alone.

[OOUUneverover]

I'm always going to be alone.
I've never met anyone I can really relate to. Even in the most niche online spaces I feel like an outsider.
I think my beliefs/values are too rare, my mental health state is too rare for anyone relate to.
I feel so alone. I have no emotional connection to anybody. I'll never experience any type of love that I truly want, neither romantic nor platonic. My family is nice but I don't really understand them, I don't really love them back. I don't think I have the ability to.
For the past few days I've been in some type of manic episode, catastrophizing about this (and other stuff too). Every time I see some depiction of emotional or even physical connection, it only makes me want to kill myself even more. I'm never going to be like that, I'll never experience that. At this point, I'd take abuse over this isolation.

I know that I completely deserve my loneliness, but that doesn't make it any easier.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I wish you didn't have to be alone. It sucks. I feel I'm better off alone relationship wise. I don't know how to connect with anyone either.
Since I want to die more than anything, it's pointless for me to date. It would be nice to get a hug sometimes.
I wish you didn't have to be alone. It sucks. I feel I'm better off alone relationship wise. I don't know how to connect with anyone either.
Since I want to die more than anything, it's pointless for me to date. It would be nice to get a hug sometimes.

 

[bamster]

same bro life is shit i work full time to come home to my empty tiny appartment that's smaller than most people's living room
no1 is like me i will always be alone and i am getting tired of trying to staying optimistic ITS OVER IM 31 YEARS OLD I HAVE TRIED FOR LONG ENOUGH

 

[escapee205]

Yea I think some people are just meant to be alone. Not that I can really explain why. But im so tired of it haven't celebrated my last 2 birthdays. And I know it sounds like a weird thing to be upset about. But I just hate that empty lonley feeling sitting alone in my apartment. The same with xmas and new years. I dont like the whole holidays season it's just a constant reminder of how alone i am.

It feels like im wasting my youth i dont go out i dont do anything. I go to work and then home that's all I ever do. I would love to go out and have fun or see something. You ofc can also do that alone. But I just feel so pathetic going out to do something alone. It's like really rubbing in that I dont have anyone.

 

[wordsoutb4sumnelsin]

Fucked up enough, I've felt for a long time that being back in villages meant something. Yeh plenty about humans sucks. But hard to deny at least some good ish too. I feel like the size of society, capitalism, internet under capitalism... At the very least, feel stuff could be better without money running everything, disconnected as hell and not even a "third place" to meet ppl... IDK, fwiw, not all individual fault