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Zaya

Zaya

dead dreams, false hopes
May 3, 2023
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i'm a bit late with this post because i have already been posting occasionally for the last couple of weeks but anyway

last year i met some really nice and helpful people on here and i just want to say thank you, even tho they probably wont be reading this.

anyway, long story short i thought i had a reason to keep going back then but turns out it was all just false hopes and now im feeling even worse than before

i started cutting myself again, quit my job (altho i was feeling slightly better for a while after that), have a lot of debt and am about to lose my apartment so i moved back in with my family, started drinking everyday again and now i have been bothered daily by family issues for a while but that luckily cooled down for now, all of that along with all the issues i already had before all that.

i just recently got some new sn as well as everything else i need to ctb and i am going to use it soon. ill still be around for a couple more weeks because i have to sort some things out before i go

ill post a final goodbye before i am going to take it so until then ill still be around if anyone even cares
 
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restless.dreams

restless.dreams

Experienced
Feb 7, 2024
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Welcome back, I'm sorry that things didn't work out the way you hoped. We are always here for you <3
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Existence really is too cruel, it's dreadful to me how existing can very easily get worse for people, I'm sorry you've had to suffer so much. But anyway best wishes, I imagine it must be a relief having access to the SN.
 
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Olisop21.

Student
Mar 15, 2024
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I wish I could just get this overwith now.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Welcome back and good luck with your plan! :heart:
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Welcome back, and yes, folk do care.
 
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