Venting I’m afraid I’ll never be able to ctb

[Ravel]

I gave life another chance, threw my sn away five or six months ago. I've been taking prozac for depression and anxiety for seven months now, again, yet I'm still deeply depressed. I have no desire to live, and it feels like no therapy or antidepressant can fix that. The feeling that I wasn't made for this life is overwhelming I feel completely out of place, unfit to live in society. Bullying destroyed my self-esteem. I never even got to develop social skills because of it since childhood. I want to die, but the instinct to live is too strong. I'm programmed to live. This is like a prison

 

[purpp37]

I've been wanting to die longer than I've wanted to live. I've tried numerous times but never succeeded. I understand your pain. It feels like I'm trapped on this earth in my disgusting flesh vessel. I hate this body, I want to free my soul and reach peace.

 

[Defatigatis]

Oi Ravel! Que surpresa ver um post seu, admito que fiquei feliz por te ver e ao mesmo tempo triste pela vida ainda estar insuportável pra você também :(
Pensei que sumiu porque ou CTB ou desistiu da ideia.

Talvez não faça ideia de quem eu seja, mas vi alguns posts seus na época que o Ethereal Knight ainda estava conosco, enfim...

 

[itsgone2]

I gave life another chance, threw my sn away five or six months ago. I've been taking prozac for depression and anxiety for seven months now, again, yet I'm still deeply depressed. I have no desire to live, and it feels like no therapy or antidepressant can fix that. The feeling that I wasn't made for this life is overwhelming I feel completely out of place, unfit to live in society. Bullying destroyed my self-esteem. I never even got to develop social skills because of it since childhood. I want to die, but the instinct to live is too strong. I'm programmed to live. This is like a prison

I'm sorry about the bullying and self esteem. You don't have to say, but was this school? Family? This seems to have completely destroyed you.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I gave life another chance, threw my sn away five or six months ago. I've been taking prozac for depression and anxiety for seven months now, again, yet I'm still deeply depressed. I have no desire to live, and it feels like no therapy or antidepressant can fix that. The feeling that I wasn't made for this life is overwhelming I feel completely out of place, unfit to live in society. Bullying destroyed my self-esteem. I never even got to develop social skills because of it since childhood. I want to die, but the instinct to live is too strong. I'm programmed to live. This is like a prison

I don't know your age, but you are probably quite young. I had the same mindset when my first suicidal thoughts appeared long time ago when I was just 16 years old. Sadly things didn't got better for me and now at an age of 38 I know that suicide is a certainty for me

 

[Ravel]

Oi Ravel! Que surpresa ver um post seu, admito que fiquei feliz por te ver e ao mesmo tempo triste pela vida ainda estar insuportável pra você também :(
Pensei que sumiu porque ou CTB ou desistiu da ideia.

Talvez não faça ideia de quem eu seja, mas vi alguns posts seus na época que o Ethereal Knight ainda estava conosco, enfim...

Oi meu amigo, tudo bem?. Poxa nem me fale. Sinto muita saudades do Ethereal knight.

I don't know your age, but you are probably quite young. I had the same mindset when my first suicidal thoughts appeared long time ago when I was just 16 years old. Sadly things didn't got better for me and now at an age of 38 I know that suicide is a certainty for me

I'm sorry to hear that, my friend. I'm 27 now. Depressed since 18.

 

[Collie:3]

courage, love everyone site, everyone family. Fuck our corrupt system filled with corrupt retard cops.

Final trip like stargazing during the night sky boost confidence to CTB?

 

[Ravel]

I'm sorry about the bullying and self esteem. You don't have to say, but was this school? Family? This seems to have completely destroyed you.

I was dealing with bullying, physical aggression even before school. Also I grew up in a dysfunctional family

 

[Defatigatis]

Oi meu amigo, tudo bem?. Poxa nem me fale. Sinto muita saudades do Ethereal knight.

Bem não está, se não eu nem estaria aqui rs.
Ele parecia ser alguém legal de ter por perto mesmo, já vi e ainda vejo as vezes os posts dele mesmo após sua partida, não o conheço em detalhes e nunca conversamos, mas faço isso como uma forma de tentar conhecer um pouco mais um amigo que nunca tive.

 

[Irisse]

I'm so sorry. I was also bullied, if you want to talk about it my PMs are open.