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noflawless

noflawless

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Dec 27, 2025
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Hello my dear friends, I am 99% decided to end my life on December 30th, 2025, and well... I'm a little anxious and nervous. Could you give me some tips to stay calm until that day?

And by the way, I'm new here, I joined yesterday.
 
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Dawnfang11

Dawnfang11

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
57
It depends what specifically is making you anxious. I don't know how helpful that is, but I'm planning for an approaching date, and for me it's helpful to not think of the future or the past. I try not to focus on the parts of my life I regret or that I will miss, or about what will transpire after my death. I focus instead on the reasons pushing me to this, and the peace that I will get.
 
noflawless

noflawless

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Dec 27, 2025
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It depends what specifically is making you anxious. I don't know how helpful that is, but I'm planning for an approaching date, and for me it's helpful to not think of the future or the past. I try not to focus on the parts of my life I regret or that I will miss, or about what will transpire after my death. I focus instead on the reasons pushing me to this, and the peace that I will get.
There's one thing in particular that worries me a lot: my father. He'll be the one to find my body hanging there, and I feel a certain pity for him.
 
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Dawnfang11

Fate calls to us all
Dec 21, 2025
57
There's one thing in particular that worries me a lot: my father. He'll be the one to find my body hanging there, and I feel a certain pity for him.
I also feel extremely bad for whoever will find my body. The way I cope with that is with not thinking of the future, as I mentioned before. I also remind myself that ctb is ultimately a selfish thing to do. At least in my case. People will be heartbroken, and I will cause issues to those I love. So let it be selfish. For once in my life, I will be selfish and I will sadden some people, but I will be better for it.

Good luck, friend. Hope you find your peace.
 
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noflawless

noflawless

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Dec 27, 2025
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Também me sinto extremamente mal por quem encontrar meu corpo. A maneira que encontrei para lidar com isso foi não pensar no futuro, como mencionei antes. Também me lembro de que tirar a própria vida é, em última análise, um ato egoísta. Pelo menos no meu caso. As pessoas ficarão com o coração partido e eu causarei problemas para aqueles que amo. Então, que seja egoísta. Pela primeira vez na vida, serei egoísta e entristecerei algumas pessoas, mas sairei melhor disso.

Boa sorte, amigo. Espero que você encontre a sua paz.
Yes, I think about that too. I've come to terms with everything, even the pain I'll feel for a few seconds, but with this, this is painful. What son or daughter would wish this for their father or mother?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 

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