• ⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block.

AnonymousL

AnonymousL

Arcanist
Apr 5, 2023
420
Someone important to me and I got in a fight.

When we were talking about it he said that when I am mad I have the same look in my eyes as my dad.

I'm terrified of my dad. The look in his eyes still scare me to death and I'm almost 25 now.

I'm the same as him. I feel like a monster and I want to die. I don't want to live like this. I would rather not exist than to be the same. I can't. Kill me. Please. Please please kill me.
 
  • Love
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: tvoisluga, Sluggish_Slump, thewalkingdread and 2 others
Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
3,926
Ok, you now know this. Death will solve the problem but what other ways can you manage this?
Anger management might be a good starting place. It might help you deal with your father too.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Praestat_Mori
N

nessun_nome

Student
May 7, 2023
146
How are you defining 'monster'? Have you done anything 'monstrous'?

You aren't a monster. You are a bit scary when angered. That's OK.
 
IHurtTheOneILove

IHurtTheOneILove

Experienced
Dec 16, 2023
205
Someone important to me and I got in a fight.

When we were talking about it he said that when I am mad I have the same look in my eyes as my dad.

I'm terrified of my dad. The look in his eyes still scare me to death and I'm almost 25 now.

I'm the same as him. I feel like a monster and I want to die. I don't want to live like this. I would rather not exist than to be the same. I can't. Kill me. Please. Please please kill me.
Are you sure they didnt just say that to hurt you? What have you done thats monstrous?
 

Similar threads

D
Replies
5
Views
257
Suicide Discussion
ropeburns&migranes
ropeburns&migranes
Mooncry
Replies
6
Views
561
Suicide Discussion
nemesis_
nemesis_
breathingblues
Replies
2
Views
351
Recovery
KlixxFoxe
KlixxFoxe
32yroldloser
Replies
2
Views
169
Suicide Discussion
witchcraft
witchcraft
kosmischerunfall
Replies
16
Views
811
Suicide Discussion
ih34rty0u
ih34rty0u