i'll turn 30 in a couple hours and i'm extremely sad

[lawlietsph]

just venting. 2 more hours and i'm officially 30 years old. my life is a joke, i still live with my mother, i barely make enough money and in my mind i'm still 6 years old.
i don't understand how these years have passed so quickly. i'm still a little child, i don't know how to function. i am mentally ill, beyond help for sure.. my mind is on suicide 24/7
i'm old and ugly. so ugly...
the fact that i'm 30 now is making me extremely suicidal, i feel like i've lost something.
why do we even count the numbers? what's the point? a horse doesn't know it's age.. or a dog, or a bird, or anything. this is a human made bullshit again.

i feel like i can snap anytime, i'm barely holding on, i want to hurt myself and destroy this ugly, disgusting body and mind. i'm still a little child, i can't do this anymore, everything hurts so much

it's not that anyone cared about me before, but as a woman i feel like now i officially became worthless and all that shit. i know it's stupid... what if i'm going to regret not having children? i basically never had a youth, maybe this is why everything feels so confusing now. idk what i'm talking about anymore...

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

I'm sorry your going through this... You're not old.... Trust me.... I'm 60, that's old! Hang in there

 

[Tired_birth_1967]

I'm 60 years old, but mentally I feel much older. I agree, 30 isn't old. I only decided to marry my wife after I turned 30. And before that, I didn't even have plans in that direction. It simply happened because I had absolutely no inclination towards relationships. She didn't have children, nor did I. And we never wanted any. She enjoys life. That's not a problem for me. I don't share my thoughts with her about life, existence, etc., and we live well.

 

[I_go_in]

just venting. 2 more hours and i'm officially 30 years old. my life is a joke, i still live with my mother, i barely make enough money and in my mind i'm still 6 years old.
i don't understand how these years have passed so quickly. i'm still a little child, i don't know how to function. i am mentally ill, beyond help for sure.. my mind is on suicide 24/7
i'm old and ugly. so ugly...
the fact that i'm 30 now is making me extremely suicidal, i feel like i've lost something.
why do we even count the numbers? what's the point? a horse doesn't know it's age.. or a dog, or a bird, or anything. this is a human made bullshit again.

i feel like i can snap anytime, i'm barely holding on, i want to hurt myself and destroy this ugly, disgusting body and mind. i'm still a little child, i can't do this anymore, everything hurts so much

it's not that anyone cared about me before, but as a woman i feel like now i officially became worthless and all that shit. i know it's stupid... what if i'm going to regret not having children? i basically never had a youth, maybe this is why everything feels so confusing now. idk what i'm talking about anymore...

Bro you know that in the modern economy most people live with their parents even until 35? It isn't 1970 anymore where you can be a blue collar worker and support a family. Capitalism has made sure of that. In most cultures it's not even weird to live with family forever. It's a very recent thing. I'm guessing you're an American and you think that some American dream is still alive like it's 1950. It's not like that anymore.

 

[dearreader]

30 isn't old, I think the internet just makes anyone >21 feel prehistoric. Possibly doing some mental gymnastics here, but short-form content and the revolving door of influencers makes everyone in the spotlight, like, 16 years old...

 

[Kanoh]

I'm 38 and I live with my parents even though I could easily afford my own place. Not a big deal, in many countries people stay at their family houses until 40 or even whole life. Don't sweat over it.

 

[idontknowwhatiam]

Bro you know that in the modern economy most people live with their parents even until 35? It isn't 1970 anymore where you can be a blue collar worker and support a family. Capitalism has made sure of that. In most cultures it's not even weird to live with family forever. It's a very recent thing. I'm guessing you're an American and you think that some American dream is still alive like it's 1950. It's not like that anymore.

The American dream is dead

 

[davidtorez]

The American dream is dead

Its become the American nightmare. No different to Australia where I'm from
I'm 44 and still living at home with my intolerable old man who's got ocd. Not out of choice but because I dont make enough money to rent or own a place in one of the most expensive cities in the world, Sydney