I will be kinder. I won't pretend to be tough anymore, i won't pretend to be uncaring. I will be kind and i will be me, i won't change my tone of voice depending on the person anymore. I'll be especially calm, so much so that people will be shocked why i changed so much. I will be how i want to be, i won't force myself to act differently anymore. I'll stop cutting, i won't make my mother and friends sad anymore. I'll talk to my psychiatrist as if I'm talking to anyone at all, i won't feel uncomfortable and i won't feel weird. I'll smile when i talk, smile all the time. My last moments should be beautiful, I'll be a person before i die. I'll be a human. A normal, caring human. I'll go out beautifully and responsibly, I'll live for people and put everyone before myself. I won't hurt anyone anymore
