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sorrowful

My exhaustion knows no end
Feb 13, 2023
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Nat Geo Stars GIF by National Geographic Channel
 
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Depression

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This is where I'm going to CTB. In the early morning so I can catch one last sunrise.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
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The Computer History Museum is a museum of computer history, located in Mountain View, California. The museum presents stories and artifacts of Silicon Valley and the information age, and explores the computing revolution and its impact on society.
 
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Depression

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Apr 25, 2023
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That is

I have that same plan in mind,, though that view you have for yourself looks indescribable,,I bet it's truly sublime, even more so in person,,mesmerizing?
It is truly beautiful. The air is so fresh. It's where I go when I'm sad or depressed. But it has a personal significance. It's where my ex and I started. Only seems fitting to end it all there.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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Fall Colors Northeast Kingdom Vermont
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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It is truly beautiful. The air is so fresh. It's where I go when I'm sad or depressed. But it has a personal significance. It's where my ex and I started. Only seems fitting to end it all there.
I don't mean to bud in but, isn't it painful, I get that everytime I go to this specific location of mine that I hold dear to me, similar to your sentimental value with your special location, i find its honestly bewildering to go back with only myself to these places, Though having had been with her here so many times makes me almost think she's still there, perhaps you get that to an extent? Mabye catching yourself pretending to talk them, or even purposefully?
 
BringMeToLife

BringMeToLife

I'm stuck in here
Apr 13, 2023
219
Sweden in winter
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I've always liked the sound of drinking N somewhere peaceful, scenic and far away from other people, like looking at a sunset in the mountains. Somewhere like that would be nice to peacefully drift away into an eternal sleep.
 
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Depression

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Apr 25, 2023
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I don't mean to bud in but, isn't it painful, I get that everytime I go to this specific location of mine that I hold dear to me, similar to your sentimental value with your special location, i find its honestly bewildering to go back with only myself to these places, Though having had been with her here so many times makes me almost think she's still there, perhaps you get that to an extent? Mabye catching yourself pretending to talk them, or even purposefully?
It's incredibly painful. I can't tell you how many times I've gone up. Been so sad and honestly drunk that I watch videos on my phone to distract myself. Then I see something funny and turn to want to show her and she's not there. Just something I do out of habit. A reflex honestly.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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I've always liked the sound of drinking N somewhere peaceful, scenic and far away from other people, like looking at a sunset in the mountains. Somewhere like that would be nice to peacefully drift away into an eternal sleep.
imagine your on a mountain in the summer with the night sky being free from clouds, and only the moon and stars where visible up above, while having a small fire set up at the edge of this secluded mountain top, so with the warm light breeze through the air and this comforting warm color in the corner of my eye reminding of the different beauty between the sky and this fire,,, I swear i could leave right then an there if I had what I needed.
Fall Colors Northeast Kingdom Vermont
splendid choice.
 
aliasblue.

aliasblue.

forever envious
Apr 3, 2023
44
The face of my lover.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
799
It's incredibly painful. I can't tell you how many times I've gone up. Been so sad and honestly drunk that I watch videos on my phone to distract myself. Then I see something funny and turn to want to show her and she's not there. Just something I do out of habit. A reflex honestly.
I get it,, and I won't say i completely understand because I'm not you, but,, I get it,, when im drunk enough I'd start havin figmatated conversations with them, like I'd pretend to tap are drinks together an I'd say are "Cheers!!",, plus I'd go on to talk about my life getting em up to date even when there not really there,, basically I'd laugh until my laughter no longer kept the tears from leaving my eyes.
 
Papilio_polyxenes

Papilio_polyxenes

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Oct 4, 2022
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My original CTB plan involved a certain lake known for its freezing temperatures at various times of year. Trail nearby is known to have low traffic, and there would be few obstacles to access.

It is surrounded by a place of great beauty that I'd be able to observe before dying - probably of hypothermia, possibly drowning. If my SN gets confiscated, I'll likely revert to this plan. Feels like I would be returning myself to nature in a sense.
 
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Depression

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I get it,, and I won't say i completely understand because I'm not you, but,, I get it,, when im drunk enough I'd start havin figmatated conversations with them, like I'd pretend to tap are drinks together an I'd say are "Cheers!!",, plus I'd go on to talk about my life getting em up to date even when there not really there,, basically I'd laugh until my laughter no longer kept the tears from leaving my eyes.
Honestly it's one reason that this is where I'm going to CTB. Cause I know how painful it is to be there. Kinda gonna use the pain to push through. Pitch up a nice little tent, put on the song that reminds me of her, cry a bit and just end it.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

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Jul 23, 2022
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All my friends sending me off. Sadly, the way things are renders that merely a fantasy.

Maybe also the night sky as a reminder of the significance of everything.
 
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wiltingorchid

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Apr 16, 2023
136
Beachy Head. If getting SN becomes harder, i'm gonna jump off that beautiful cliff. Seeing the ocean while fading into nothingness- sounds wonderful to me.
 
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Apr 29, 2023
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I would wish to see my lovers face in my last moments as I fall asleep in their arms.
 
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Emptied_soul

Girl with a broken soul.
Mar 4, 2023
37
dying being held by my ex-bf
 
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Source Energy

Source Energy

I want to be where people areN'T...
Jan 23, 2023
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I am right where I want to be - just my regular day is what I want before my ctb. If you had asked me a year ago, I would have said I want to die in the place I now am...it's just the terrible circumstances I wouldn't have imagined.
 
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miu

miu

fading innocence
Apr 27, 2023
59
it would be so lovely to lie down in a field of flowers with my best friend. maybe that's where i'll wake up in the afterlife. i can hope.
 
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If I could die anywhere, seeing anything, I would peacefully go outside my family home in the mountains of Luca, Italy, looking up at the love of my life, surrounded by a clear night sky full of stars.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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All my friends sending me off. Sadly, the way things are renders that merely a fantasy.

Maybe also the night sky as a reminder of the significance of everything.
I always think about how if I were to have somone I care significantly for be my end then id have the most pleasant send off, that being a friend or a significant other, Though I know that's not an option, anyhow I think the night sky's a great choice,,it's comforting, and absolutely Luminous.
If I could die anywhere, seeing anything, I would peacefully go outside my family home in the mountains of Luca, Italy, looking up at the love of my life, surrounded by a clear night sky full of stars.
That'd be just perfect..
it would be so lovely to lie down in a field of flowers with my best friend. maybe that's where i'll wake up in the afterlife. i can hope.
I could only hope for the same,,and that'd really be a comforting end, truly, I no longer have my best friend but I can't lie this made me tear up a lil, because well, that'd be so fucking nice, splendid choice on your part.
 
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unplug

unplug

Vapor Self
Apr 11, 2023
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White shores, and a far green country under a swift sunrise.
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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I am right where I want to be - just my regular day is what I want before my ctb. If you had asked me a year ago, I would have said I want to die in the place I now am...it's just the terrible circumstances I wouldn't have imagined.
I can't imagine what your going through,, but I feel for you, an i really wish you the best, mabye its dumb but i always will want the best for anyone I come into even slight contact with so,,goodluck.
White shores, and a far green country under a swift sunrise.
That'd be so calming,,,such a pleasant thought.
I would wish to see my lovers face in my last moments as I fall asleep in their arms.
Now that would be heaven.
Beachy Head. If getting SN becomes harder, i'm gonna jump off that beautiful cliff. Seeing the ocean while fading into nothingness- sounds wonderful to me.
Truly
 
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YandereMikuMistress

you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
Apr 26, 2023
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Honestly it's one reason that this is where I'm going to CTB. Cause I know how painful it is to be there. Kinda gonna use the pain to push through. Pitch up a nice little tent, put on the song that reminds me of her, cry a bit and just end it.
Ay you, my apologies for this late reply, but if your still kickin, that idea is honestly quite aching,,still though,,sentimental an bittersweet, I really wish you the best, if you ever need somone to bullshit to, you can post as much as you want here or even private message, no pressure tho, I may be bad myself with responses, but whether or not you read this or take it into consideration of you do see this, I always answer when I go on here, anyhow,, ta-ta.
 

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