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phoebie467

phoebie467

My flame's already gone out
Mar 17, 2024
91
I scheduled this post to be released 5 days after my CTB, giving me time to delete it in case something went wrong. If you're seeing this, it means everything went as planned, and I caught the bus.

You can check out the details of my plan here (that was also my goodbye thread).

I swapped out the clonazepam/diazepam drink for 20 mg of alprazolam, crushed and mixed with water. Based on my own tests, alprazolam worked better in everything.

I record a video of my final moments.

Apologies if the video hasn't been uploaded. Things like blackouts, internet issues, or other unexpected problems could have come up.

Here are the links where I've set up the video to be uploaded:

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-akF18vu-HtaHuXh9wsH6ZZiBbzerGFE?usp=sharing

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/j1pm...ey=ll3c1lf095p6pol2g5g0pw6dl&st=4q8u5xg1&dl=0

I consent to the use of my image for educational purposes.

I hope this video answer some of your questions about the SN method.

It's possible the video is too large or long. If that's the case, I'd appreciate it if someone could edit and re-upload it.

I would like someone to write what happens in the video, especially to help those who are blind or have vision problems to know what happened.

If the video goes down, please reupload it, and make it public. I probably used a weak blur in the video or used something to preserve my identity.

I won't be leaving a farewell letter, but I want to share my favourite song:



I was born in 12/18/1995 and had a very happy childhood. I'm grateful to my family for that. But somewhere along the way, things just went off track.

I hope everything works out for everyone!
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Illuminated
Mar 21, 2019
3,701
Last time online was Monday!
 
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Kish

Member
Mar 2, 2024
70
Rest in peace <3
 
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Coringa

Coringa

Member
Mar 19, 2024
65
Rest in peace
 
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MorsVoluntaria

MorsVoluntaria

Member
Dec 27, 2018
25
rest in peace
 
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Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...😢
Aug 19, 2019
256
I think I got all the videos uploaded but I'm not sure. From what I can tell when they passed it was very peaceful. Rest in peace sweetheart
 
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fallingtopieces

fallingtopieces

Warlock
May 6, 2024
719
i'm sorry life brought you to this. may you rest in peace.
 
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littletoomuch

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Sep 26, 2024
7
Rest in peace.
 
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Username1359751

Enlightened
Mar 14, 2024
1,333
Omg... What a poor soul. So, so sorry...🥀
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,713
I couldnt access the videos , hope it was peaceful. RIP
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
513
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.
 
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Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...😢
Aug 19, 2019
256
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.
Rest in peace. I hope you found what you were looking for in death.

Videos are also inaccessible for me. Not sure if it's safe to download, so I'll come back later. I hope it was peaceful.
I was able to view it on Dropbox. I'm not sure if they were able to record all of it but from what I did see it was very peaceful.
 
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GalacticWarrior777

GalacticWarrior777

"Don't say yes if you can't say no."
Sep 24, 2024
181
Godspeed.
 
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dela

dela

One must imagine Sisyphus dead.
Sep 3, 2024
17
Também gosto bastante dessa do Titãs. A gente não conversou muito por aqui mas você sempre foi muito amigável. Obrigado por tudo. Espero que você esteja em paz agora.

I also really like this song. We only talked a few times but you were always very friendly and helpful. Thanks for everything. I hope you are at peace.
 
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Plato'sCaveDweller

Plato'sCaveDweller

Sleep is good, death is better.
Sep 2, 2024
513
I was able to download it on Dropbox. I'm not sure if they were able to record all of it but from what I did see it was very peaceful.
Ah, the videos are viewable through dropbox, no download needed. Thank you.

After watching, it appears it was quite peaceful.

Events are as follows:
Unsure of when SN was ingested. Uneventful until retching at around 8:50. Vomiting at around 9:24. Unconsciousness at 14-15mins (Can't quite tell, going off of last arm movement). First agonal breathing at around 16mins. Final agonal breathing at around 46mins. I assume death followed shortly after.

I know phoebie requested someone to write about the timeline of events for those who can't view the video. But this is a start. I don't really feel like watching the video in depth, writing down every detail that I can see. But this is the general timeline.

They didn't appear to be in distress (benzos and propranolol definitely helping there). They weren't in agonizing sickness. They threw up only a few times, and it was during only one bout before they lay down to pass out. I'm not an expert, but to my eye I'd say that this is a case of when SN goes perfectly right. Little suffering, relatively quick to pass out, death in under an hour. Honestly, it was very similar to the recounts from the PPH.

Maybe someone else can fulfill phoebies wish for a proper recount of their experience.
 
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L'absent

L'absent

Banned
Aug 18, 2024
1,391
Have a safe trip darling. I'm sorry that it ended like this, but now all the suffering is over and biology (with its crazy existence and arrogance) has been disintegrated.💗
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I hope you are at peace now.
 
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astr4

astr4

memento mori
Mar 27, 2019
628
rest well. i'm glad that your suffering has come to an end, i hope your soul is at peace.
 
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Reflection

Arcanist
Sep 12, 2024
407
Rest in peace :heart:
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
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Rest in peace 🕯️:heart:
 
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destinationlosangel

destinationlosangel

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
300
rest in peace
 
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judestfrancis

judestfrancis

Life rearranges itself to compensate for your loss
Dec 21, 2023
22
rest in peace, you deserve only the kindest passing 🖤
 
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SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Goodbye, rest well.
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
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I hope you are at peace now.
 
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Looked painless and would consider it peaceful. I'm suprised there were no visible seizures. It looks like they're sleeping but later on in the video the breathing becomes abnormal (agonal breathing). The main video is bottom right.
 
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Thanatos.br

Member
Dec 7, 2023
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Goodbye my friend, i wish you found peace
 
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reno883

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Jun 23, 2024
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Rest in Peace my friend
 
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DanielDanDean

DanielDanDean

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Jul 18, 2024
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Rest in peace ! Hope you'll never suffer anymore
 
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