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Lucifer'sRight

Lucifer'sRight

Experienced
Feb 4, 2020
256
I'd first review my life. I'd request a map of my mind and see exactly how i screwed up. I'd wish to see all the assumptions i had about people, the world and myself and how they compared to reality. I'd want to see how people saw me and why. I'd like to see how this shit in my life developed and all the answers i almost had. and then I'd create a new me. ten times better, at least.
 
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HannahB

HannahB

Death is the true name of time.
Oct 29, 2019
185
Have you seen the youtube video called "the egg" seems up your alley
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
360
I once heard a description of the afterlife where god shows you your life as you lived it, and then as it could have been if you'd made other choices. It just sounded like a prank move for a deity to do that when it was too late.

I can't picture an afterlife I would want, my imagination is not good enough. I want either sleep without dreams (which is frankly what I expect, I expect not to be aware of anything) or else something so different and wonderful that my mortal experience becomes completely unimportant.
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
I would go back to dancing on my lake under the moonlight. Relive the happiest moments I had when I felt at ease and connected with something bigger than myself. Connect with my mom and loved ones that have passed. Dance through the universe listening to Alan Watts and Eckart Tolle lol. Live in Alex Grey's paintings.
I think it'd be fun to watch other lives unfold as well. Feel what it's like to be in communion with another person.. but in a more spiritual plane.

Nice fantasy. Altho I could in a way do that now if I let myself

I think a life review would be good too. However it would be a form of hell- I feel like I have mostly left a bad footprint and would likely have to live through the effect I had on others.
 
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faraway_beach

Seawater and stardust
Dec 30, 2019
360
I thought of something else. If I had infinite possibilities, I would like to see heaven's library. I would be able to read any language, and all books would be there, even the ones that were destroyed in real life. Maybe there would even be books that were never written but only dreamed of.
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
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Well, the first thing I would do is review my whole genealogical tree, don't know why.
 
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