If it ultimately comes down to it and you have no other options that are feasible, will you accept a painful death to escape?

[Siamese Believe]

I'm considering it, I'm saving that for an absolute last resort though. I may still be able to pull off partial hanging, especially with my new idea of barricading the door. I'll just practice the partial again, see how it goes before making a final decision. If even children, inmates and the elderly can pull this off then I don't see why I can't. Besides I doubt most people who successfully did partial ever did research.

However if I deem partial to be too risky and or I don't feel confident that I will succeed, I know I have enough built up rage and despair to be able to pull off a quick but painful death in a frenzy. I think the longer you suffer and the longer you remain suicidal, the more likely you are to choose maximum lethality over peaceful and easy.

 

[monetpompo]

I know I have enough built up rage and despair to be able to pull off a quick but painful death in a frenzy.

what are other methods that you're considering?

i would also do a painful method if i knew it would kill me. i think about stabbing myself or cutting my arteries from time to time, but i know that i wouldn't succeed if i tried. sometimes the pain just gets too much and i want to do something that would end things, even if it would hurt a lot in the moment.

 

[compulsoryaliveness]

I'm not convinced that any of the options (at least, available to me) don't involve some kind of pain.

Physical pain is less concerning to me than the type of pain that is severe enough to create a survival instinct response, whether that be pain in my psyche, body or spirit.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

If I have no other choice & my first method fails, but I hope it doesn't come to that.

 

[Siamese Believe]

what are other methods that you're considering?

i would also do a painful method if i knew it would kill me. i think about stabbing myself or cutting my arteries from time to time, but i know that i wouldn't succeed if i tried. sometimes the pain just gets too much and i want to do something that would end things, even if it would hurt a lot in the moment.

Stab to the heart, left ventricle with an almost 8 inch chef knife, and then pulling it out. The knife can slide in between the ribs to the left of the sternum. The heartbeat can be felt to the left of your sternum with your fingers, you'd go unconscious very fast if that spot were stabbed, I've seen it happen in gore videos.

The heart is also close to the surface of the skin if you're skinny so it won't take much more than willpower. It's damn near impossible to survive a stab there. Only problem is the mess, if I have to go with that I was thinking of leaving a towel on the floor for the blood spray.

 

[Jadeith]

Since there's no 100% proof that the popular methods are totally pain-free (with the exception of the gun maybe, if used properly ofc), only "least painful" or "seemingly painless" then if those i've chosen fail, i'd resort to next available method, pain or no pain.

 

[madwoman]

I get intrusive thoughts of stabbing myself but I know I wouldn't be able too. I also think about how like in movies if someone dies by getting stabbed, they are usually stabbed multiple times so that just makes me think it's not a fast and reliable way to die. I don't feel like I'd have the strength and would probably miss the important part and then have to deal with that aftermath. That sounds horrifying to me.

I don't think I could go through with a super painful method unless I reach a boiling point where I absolutely can't go on. Bc a lot of super painful ones seems like it could have the worst repercussions if it fails & that scares me more.

 

[Still here]

I'd go for drowning actually I fantasize a lot about drowning........ .........

 

[FuneralCry]

To permanently cease existing and be at peace from this dreadful and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake is just all I hope for and no matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than be tortured in this painful, deeply undesirable existence but what I fear is trying to cease existing going wrong and leading to way worse suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to never exist again that is guaranteed.

 

[itsgone2]

I have a noose ready. Could Fsh and that's painful but hopefully for a short while. We don't know though. If we don't pass out quickly, it's not gonna be good.

Recently, I've started looking at guns more. I don't know one but it wouldn't be hard to. A 9 mm to the side of the head should end things immediately but you don't know.

I've noticed in the past some users who seemed generally angry about the fact that you can't just go to the doctor and get N or something like that. I understand that anger and frustration now. It should absolutely be an option to anyone over 18.

 

[Forever Sleep]

They've certainly run through my head. Obviously, jumping. But then, I've even considered cutting off a hand with a power tool and bleeding out. I don't think I could do it though.

But, I don't feel like it even should come to that. I have SN prepared- although, it's expiring soon. I'd like to have some back up methods prepared too though.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Lethality is the most important thing

The higher probability the better

The most important thing is that it be guaranteed to succeed or at least 99.9%

 

[Blueberry Panic]

If my next few attempt fails i'm doing self immolation ... I really don't care anymore

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

If my next few attempt fails i'm doing self immolation ... I really don't care anymore

There's a good chance of that failing. Of course the pain would be unimaginable if it "worked," but think of all the hospital time after.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

There's a good chance of that failing. Of course the pain would be unimaginable if it "worked," but think of all the hospital time after.

We will see

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I ain't trying anything more painful than FSH.

Inert gas, CO, and a gun are all possibilities but I'm very resistant to doing the legwork to get supplies. Just that depressed and cowardly right now. I guess I could go to the store for CO. I feel like they'd be suspicious when I went to buy the others.

 

[TAW122]

I would think I would have the capability and ability to do so, if I am ever put into such a situation myself. I think about what ifs but of course, it is also possible for the annoying and pesky SI to kick-in and impede me from going through. I remember in times of desperation where I get frantic but it doesn't mean that success is guaranteed or likely. Sure, I may be able to further suppress SI depending on the degree of despair I have but never fully. Finally, it is also possible that being in that state of mind and mood also has room for error and failure since one is not likely to execute it as well compared to being fully focused and calculated, kind of like in an altered state of mind and what not.

 

[Guy0117]

If I had a gun and the cops were breaking in trying to stop me or OTW I'd put it into my mouth point up and pull the trigger. They can't help me, only make my life way harder and forced on rails. It's like the matrix