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Exhausted546

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Dec 1, 2025
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My life had alot of potential until traumatic events and abuse when I was 21-22 that completely broke me. That's when everything went to shit. If I die and I was given the choice of being reborn as the son of a billionaire or being me again but avoiding the living hell that permanently changed me for the worse , I may be delusional but I'd want to be me again.

I'm in my 30s now, I'm exhausted. Not really willing to give life another try, but God i'd give almost everything (aside from my soul of it exists,cause it's not worth eternal suffering if such thing exists) to go back to age 21
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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I know what you mean. To not make the same mistakes. I could have had happiness. I messed up so bad
 
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Luke27

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Apr 3, 2024
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I've had traumatic events since I was 15. I don't know why but if I could I still wouldn't swap lives with anyone
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,551
I didn't have much control over the stuff that went wrong in my life. Bereavement early on, followed by being harmed by other people's decisions in childhood. Still, I'd also be scared of ending up with even worse odds! So- I know what you mean. Better the devil you know maybe.

I'm personally hoping this will be it though. No reincarnation or quantam mechanics malarkey.
 
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SoulWantsHome

Member
Aug 6, 2025
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My life had alot of potential until traumatic events and abuse when I was 21-22 that completely broke me. That's when everything went to shit. If I die and I was given the choice of being reborn as the son of a billionaire or being me again but avoiding the living hell that permanently changed me for the worse , I may be delusional but I'd want to be me again.

I'm in my 30s now, I'm exhausted. Not really willing to give life another try, but God i'd give almost everything (aside from my soul of it exists,cause it's not worth eternal suffering if such thing exists) to go back to age 21
According to modern, valid afterlife-research, we can reincarnate in other bodies in our next lives (if we want to) - but it seems like we aren't able to redo our previous lives.

However, in the spirit-world, we're able to re-experience our previous lives (without truly reincarnating into the bodies that we had in those lives), and try out different choices to see what the results would have been, and see how those lives would have turned out differently.
 
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WhatCouldHaveBeen32

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Oct 12, 2024
1,039
Same, I have so many views that I'm proud of and had I been anyone else, oof, who knows what could've been :)).
 
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Abort!

Orange is objectively the best color.
Jan 3, 2026
79
According to modern, valid afterlife-research, we can reincarnate in other bodies in our next lives (if we want to) - but it seems like we aren't able to redo our previous lives.

However, in the spirit-world, we're able to re-experience our previous lives (without truly reincarnating into the bodies that we had in those lives), and try out different choices to see what the results would have been, and see how those lives would have turned out differently.
Huh... that's certainly an interesting conclusion. I too have speculated that reincarnation is quite plausible at times, but source?
 
MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP!

MAKE IT STOP
Feb 11, 2023
45
mental illness runs in my family so if I were reborn as me again I'd be fucked anyway
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,078
My life had alot of potential until traumatic events and abuse when I was 21-22 that completely broke me. That's when everything went to shit. If I die and I was given the choice of being reborn as the son of a billionaire or being me again but avoiding the living hell that permanently changed me for the worse , I may be delusional but I'd want to be me again.

I'm in my 30s now, I'm exhausted. Not really willing to give life another try, but God i'd give almost everything (aside from my soul of it exists,cause it's not worth eternal suffering if such thing exists) to go back to age 21
Yeah, I just want another shot at life. My starting point was good enough. But there's no time machine, no matter how badly you want it.
 
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Unlucky777

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Dec 10, 2025
345
I feel you. I agree. I had a lot of potential up until some very traumatic events in my early 30s. I would do anything to go back to maybe say 29 or 28?
 
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OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
1,078
I feel you. I agree. I had a lot of potential up until some very traumatic events in my early 30s. I would do anything to go back to maybe say 29 or 28?
I would go back to the beginning of high school lol. Maybe earlier, puberty. Shit, you know what, kindergarten. I can think of weird soul-damaging stuff back and back. Maybe that "age of reason" at 7 is right...
 
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Unlucky777

Specialist
Dec 10, 2025
345
I would go back to the beginning of high school lol. Maybe earlier, puberty. Shit, you know what, kindergarten. I can think of weird soul-damaging stuff back and back. Maybe that "age of reason" at 7 is right...
Shit yeah you're right! I'd go as far back as high school. High school was really fun, I would absolutely do high school all over again. I also would do college all over again, that is a given where I'm at now because I'm going back to school now to study a subject I really enjoy. Wish I knew this 25 years ago. Fucking life!!!
 
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Daphne

Experienced
Jul 23, 2025
275
I had an OK childhood despite some verbal/physical abuse. Once I hit puberty I started hating my life. I think it was the hormones plus the family mental illness gene rearing its ugly head.

I'd want to reincarnate as someone without mental illness.
 
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dieingasap

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Apr 28, 2025
47
If I have a choice to not to have a life. I would choose that, life is suffering.
 
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