If I can't do this by Dec 31, I will CTB

[alexit]

I developed tinnitus during the pandemic. I now find it very difficult to study and learn, which were my greatest joys. My career has stalled. There is a certification I need to get by the end of the year, literally Dec 31. If I can't pass the certification test, that's it. I will CTB. There is no point in living. The countdown of 1 week has started. Wish me luck. Either I regain a sense of myself and feel like I can live with tinnitus or I die and I am freed from it. Either way, something good will come out of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope you do achieve what you need to and it brings you more hope. Tinnitus sounds like a nightmare though. I'm so sorry.

 

[Chairbed3]

I hope you pass the test.

 

[darksouls]

best of luck

 

[alexit]

I wish you the best.

Thank you

best of luck

Thanks

I hope you pass the test.

Thank you for the support

 

[madwoman]

I hope you get the certificate with a renewed sense of self. I have tinnitus too, it is annoying for sure, I'm sorry you deal with that too

 

[BradGuy123]

I hope you pass the certification test. My fingers are crossed for you.

 

[fruitninjamaster]

GO YOU, we are all cheering you on!

 

[Defenestration]

Good luck for the test

 

[alexit]

I hope you get the certificate with a renewed sense of self. I have tinnitus too, it is annoying for sure, I'm sorry you deal with that too

I'm so sorry to hear that. I honestly wouldn't wish it on anyone. How are you getting on with it?

I hope you pass the certification test. My fingers are crossed for you.

Thank you.

Good luck for the test

I appreciate that. Thank you

GO YOU, we are all cheering you on!

I feel it. Thank you!

 

[madwoman]

I'm so sorry to hear that. I honestly wouldn't wish it on anyone. How are you getting on with it?

me either. Mine developed I think in Feb so almost a year now. I always have my fan on for white noise or most of the time I'm listening to something - music, audiobooks, watching a movie or series for distraction. I went to a doc at some point and got a referral for a specialist but with all else going on, I decided not to follow up. It doesn't seem easily cured and I realized it wasn't from a med so it's something else. I think something autoimmune has been going on with me but ignoring everything tbh. Does anything help for you?

 

[alexit]

me either. Mine developed I think in Feb so almost a year now. I always have my fan on for white noise or most of the time I'm listening to something - music, audiobooks, watching a movie or series for distraction. I went to a doc at some point and got a referral for a specialist but with all else going on, I decided not to follow up. It doesn't seem easily cured and I realized it wasn't from a med so it's something else. I think something autoimmune has been going on with me but ignoring everything tbh. Does anything help for you?

Doctors suck at pointing people with a new diagnosis of tinnitus in the right direction. I wear hearing aids that play peaceful sounds. Also there are two specialists you need to check out. Jennifer Gans and Peter Vernezze. They are so good, I think it should be standard protocol tinnitus patients be told about them upon diagnosis. Both have multi week courses I've taken and highly recommend. They're a couple of hundred bucks but I can't overstate how much I think they're worth it. But even Vernezze's website therapistwithtinnitus.com has loads of free meditations and resources. These are two people who know tinnitus better than anyone on the planet and you feel they were honestly put on Earth to help. Vernezze has tinnitus himself. You won't find a more compassionate person.

 

[kurgan]

if you can mask your tinnitus then it's liveable.

 

[alexit]

I developed tinnitus during the pandemic. I now find it very difficult to study and learn, which were my greatest joys. My career has stalled. There is a certification I need to get by the end of the year, literally Dec 31. If I can't pass the certification test, that's it. I will CTB. There is no point in living. The countdown of 1 week has started. Wish me luck. Either I regain a sense of myself and feel like I can live with tinnitus or I die and I am freed from it. Either way, something good will come out of this.

UPDATE: I didn't pass the test. But there's no way in hell I'm letting this test decide my fate. As I studied for it, I discovered how broken the test is. The forum pages are filled with posts documenting the test's inconsistencies, glitches and wrong answers. The test is to become someone who can certify whether websites are accessible for people with disabilities. It's run by the U.S. government but because it deals with the topic of accessibility, it's underfunded, particularly with the current administration. During the recent government shutdown, aspects of the site broke and have yet to be fixed, so fuck that test. I took the test and the practice test a combined dozen times, and the same answer that was right in one instance could be wrong in another. So, yeah fuck that test. I'll suppose I'll have to try again but I won't experience any consequences. The Dec 31 deadline was because the course completion records of students would be wiped clean at midnight. I don't know why but essentially the Dec 31 deadline was arbitrary. What was important was whether I could study for the test. And I found I could, more than I expected.