Venting idk

[irregularheartbeat]

My mental health just keeps hitting new lows. My ptsd has been so fucking bad lately, it's like the flashbacks dont stop. Thet make all of my hallucinations worse. I haven't been able to be a person, and it's ruining my personal relatonships. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to disappear, ctb. I'm trying to hold on until January since i don't want to ruin anyones birthday or holiday for my family this year. I don't want to be that selfish. But every day this gets harder. There is no coping anymore. In consumed by illness.

 

[Luchs]

My mental health just keeps hitting new lows. My ptsd has been so fucking bad lately, it's like the flashbacks dont stop. Thet make all of my hallucinations worse. I haven't been able to be a person, and it's ruining my personal relatonships. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want to disappear, ctb. I'm trying to hold on until January since i don't want to ruin anyones birthday or holiday for my family this year. I don't want to be that selfish. But every day this gets harder. There is no coping anymore. In consumed by illness.

I feel you, my problems have also been getting worse lately. For now I'm still able to hide them from family and friends.