I wish someone would kill me

[varieties]

I wish someone took me out back like a dog and put me out of my misery. I fantasize someone with a gun will shoot me, even if I beg them not to. I think that'll be the easiest route for me to die. I'm too much of a pussy to inflict pain on myself and I think it would also be better for my family and bf to think I just died of murder.

 

[simji_is_offline]

That's the dream. If I ever CTB it'll be by firearms — my bf's step dad has a ton in his safe, but my stupid more hopeful past self made me forget the code as soon as he told me it. Even if I remembered, I'd barely know how to use one let alone have the nerve to carry it out. I don't think it makes you weak — you're fighting against the most primal drive within you. Staying alive is the most important thing your body can do. I wish I had someone I trusted who was willing to just put me out of my misery. It'd be so much easier.

 

[TheHolySword]

When I'm standing on the bridge. I hope someone knows to push instead of pull.

 

[varieties]

That's the dream. If I ever CTB it'll be by firearms — my bf's step dad has a ton in his safe, but my stupid more hopeful past self made me forget the code as soon as he told me it. Even if I remembered, I'd barely know how to use one let alone have the nerve to carry it out. I don't think it makes you weak — you're fighting against the most primal drive within you. Staying alive is the most important thing your body can do. I wish I had someone I trusted who was willing to just put me out of my misery. It'd be so much easier.

My grandma has a small gun hidden somewhere, but she also has the bullets hidden somewhere else. Cause my little brother tried getting it for himself. I can never find it. But like you I've never handled a gun before and I think it's too small to even do something to me. I just think if I shot myself I wouldn't fully die. That's why I wish someone else would do it to shoot me multiple times just to make sure I'm done for.

I wish suicide was legal and the hospitals could euthanize people

 

[SpencerSees]

It'd be so much easier. People always want to hurt you and beat you but never enough to actually kill you.

 

[rainatthebusstop]

I am so scared of surviving my CTB. Someone else doing it for me would at least ensure I am dead

 

[fedup1982]

Fuck life! I want to be dead!!! I'll never be able to get hold of a firearm in this country, and even if there was a chance, it's too risky. If I could id blow myself away in a heartbeat. It would be the easiest thing. I've looked down the barrel of a metaphorical gun before and pulled the trigger, I should be dead, but Im not. Now I just have poor options available to me. FUCK LIFE

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I am so scared of surviving my CTB. Someone else doing it for me would at least ensure I am dead

Same for me

I wish someone took me out back like a dog and put me out of my misery. I fantasize someone with a gun will shoot me, even if I beg them not to. I think that'll be the easiest route for me to die. I'm too much of a pussy to inflict pain on myself and I think it would also be better for my family and bf to think I just died of murder.