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maplebar

maplebar

I try to be a decent person
Feb 21, 2025
19
Maybe i am ok physically, but mentally no way. Im so tired and desperate, everynight i wish tonight will be the night that i somehow manage to catch the bus in my sleep. I dont have anyone to call my close friend anymore, i should feel sad about this. But at the same time im very happy they found other people to focus on instead of me, because when im gone they wont be too sad and everything will restore like they never knew me. Maybe my death will have an impact on some people, and maybe it wont. Maybe this is all selfish. Maybe this whole time im just faking it, faking it to the point where I actually just believe it, maybe i convinced myself.
It's going to be soon, I just hope to whatever that it will work
 
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Pr3TTyB1rd

Pr3TTyB1rd

Let me fly
Apr 18, 2025
28
I'm sorry you're experiencing this. I understand the feelings of selfishness, but at the end of the day we need to do stuff for ourselves even if other people see them as selfish. I've had to repeat that to myself the more the week goes on, because my date is in 7 days. I wish you luck. ^^
 
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maplebar

maplebar

I try to be a decent person
Feb 21, 2025
19
I'm sorry you're experiencing this. I understand the feelings of selfishness, but at the end of the day we need to do stuff for ourselves even if other people see them as selfish. I've had to repeat that to myself the more the week goes on, because my date is in 7 days. I wish you luck. ^^
Thank youI hope you find peace, i like the sparrow in your picture as well
 
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Pale_Rider

Pale_Rider

Wizard
Apr 21, 2025
677
I dont even know what ok looks like. Lol
 

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