Venting I was I was just asexual man I hate this so much

[TekkenPlayer]

I swear I'm trying not to be suicidal but sometimes my horniness kickstarts some really intense suicidal thoughts like I'm just so sad and frustrated and just pissed off that I don't have a girl like ffs man I just want a girl to be with or some nice experience with a woman anything pls I beg. If I could take some magical pill that turns me into an asexual I would take it within a heartbeat and my life would be sooooo much better but no my brain says I must have sex or else I'm going to kill myself. Like no brain that's neither fun nor helpful in any way just leave me alone stop sabotaging my life plzzzzzzzzz

 

[Hollowman]

Plenty of psych meds will kill your libido.

 

[TekkenPlayer]

Plenty of psych meds will kill your libido.

Idk if I wanna mess with meds and get random unwanted side effects

 

[flightless bird]

can i ask what exactly is stopping you from going out and talking to girls? just trying to understand.

 

[TekkenPlayer]

can i ask what exactly is stopping you from going out and talking to girls? just trying to understand.

I think it mostly boils down to self confidence issues and not going out places that much. I don't tend to go to places like cafes, bars and clubs very much and my uni is overwhelmingly male dominated so there's not much that can happen there naturally either. To touch a bit on the confidence issue I don't think I'm unlovable or anything of that nature I just can't find myself cold approaching tbqh so that hinders me I suppose. Another thing that has been bugging me is there's been one girl we've been flirty with for a while and we've been trying to start a ldr but we've never been able to actually meet up close since our schedules never matched so that is also a mood killer

 

[EvisceratedJester]

People who are asexual can still have a high libido and can still desire to be in a relationship. Asexual just refers to a lack of sexual attraction, not a lack of romantic attraction (that would make them aromantic) nor a low sex drive.

 

[sleepy_redcar]

I swear I'm trying not to be suicidal but sometimes my horniness kickstarts some really intense suicidal thoughts like I'm just so sad and frustrated and just pissed off that I don't have a girl like ffs man I just want a girl to be with or some nice experience with a woman anything pls I beg. If I could take some magical pill that turns me into an asexual I would take it within a heartbeat and my life would be sooooo much better but no my brain says I must have sex or else I'm going to kill myself. Like no brain that's neither fun nor helpful in any way just leave me alone stop sabotaging my life plzzzzzzzzz

I feel you on that part, i'm on the other side of the spectrum where i've dated people so much I don't think i've been single for longer than a month, and I wish to be single again because I miss it since i've never experienced it, I personally think smoking friends help if that's your kind of gig, just don't get addicted

 

[milkteacrown]

Medication and talking to women will not fix these problems you have. You are experiencing hypersexuality, and to resolve it, you must get to the root cause of your need for sex. I experienced hypersexuality because I was severely abused by men who felt similarly. Be careful, and make sure you have your issues in check when you start to get into relationships, or you will leave them dissatisfied.

 

[Diceroller90]

Medication and talking to women will not fix these problems you have. You are experiencing hypersexuality, and to resolve it, you must get to the root cause of your need for sex. I experienced hypersexuality because I was severely abused by men who felt similarly. Be careful, and make sure you have your issues in check when you start to get into relationships, or you will leave them dissatisfied.

I second this from first hand experience. My wanting a relationship is just a symptom of greater needs: I want to feel attractive, I want to feel accepted, I want people to help and take care of (which itself may be a symptom of a greater need), and I want people to stop asking me "Oh, when are you going to get married?" like I can just drive up the road to Brides-R-Us and get hitched by next Tuesday! [/rant]

 

[TekkenPlayer]

Medication and talking to women will not fix these problems you have. You are experiencing hypersexuality, and to resolve it, you must get to the root cause of your need for sex. I experienced hypersexuality because I was severely abused by men who felt similarly. Be careful, and make sure you have your issues in check when you start to get into relationships, or you will leave them dissatisfied.

Tbh I just don't want the need to exist at all
I feel my life would be so much better and easier if I just didn't have this need for sex & relationships, like when I said earlier I wish there was a magic pill to make me asexual, I don't mean medication, just some magic way that turns off the setting for desiring sex permanently
If I could turn off that need then I could actually focus on my life, on my studying on hobbies, just be able to actually do what I want

But I guess some of my root causes of my need for sex could be the following
1. I just want it
I'd love to experience what it's like having mindbending sex with a girl I love everynight and then waking up next to her sleepy face in the morning
I'd love to just walk outside holding hands at the beach talking, making each other laugh, teasing each other, getting into deep conversations
And hey sometimes pretty girls make me horny lol
2. Stigma around being a virgin
There are times where I talk with other guys and they start talking about sexual stuff, like how girls from xyz country are hot, that one hot chick they have banged etc, and I get a little jealous and ashamed because my experiences are pretty much 0 at the age of close to 23, and if one tries to ask me for what I've done I just kinda tiptoe around and say some (white) lies if I need to go that far
It's not anywhere near as important as point 1 but I feel it's worth mentioning


But really the main reason I wish I didn't have the need is not because I hate women, have had a bad experience with one or whatever. I just wish my brain could prioritize other more important things and not ruin my entire mood because I'm a virgin

And sorry I replied late lol I just try to minimize checking this site to not feel like shit

 

[usernamesarehard]

I swear I'm trying not to be suicidal but sometimes my horniness kickstarts some really intense suicidal thoughts like I'm just so sad and frustrated and just pissed off that I don't have a girl like ffs man I just want a girl to be with or some nice experience with a woman anything pls I beg. If I could take some magical pill that turns me into an asexual I would take it within a heartbeat and my life would be sooooo much better but no my brain says I must have sex or else I'm going to kill myself. Like no brain that's neither fun nor helpful in any way just leave me alone stop sabotaging my life plzzzzzzzzz

I've felt the same way before. Being an ugly woman means getting rejected and ignored a lot. It was frustrating getting crushes because I knew they wouldn't want me. For a long time I wished I was aro/ace so I could be done with this bs.

Got a boyfriend and he broke up with me recently, back to wanting to be aro/ace. The only sliver lining is I'm so hung up on him that I can't get crushes for anyone else. So at least I'm not getting suicidal over that.

But yeah, I'm sick of this and just waiting for my time.

Sad thing is I was pretty much aro/ace when I was a kid/teen. Like growing up I'd have crushes, but after a while I'd stop caring. And I'd have sexual feelings, but porn was enough for me. Then around 19-20? I started obsessing over the fact I had never had a boyfriend and wanted sex and intimacy. That was the beginning of the end. I wish I could go back.

 

[TekkenPlayer]

I've felt the same way before. Being an ugly woman means getting rejected and ignored a lot. It was frustrating getting crushes because I knew they wouldn't want me. For a long time I wished I was aro/ace so I could be done with this bs.

Got a boyfriend and he broke up with me recently, back to wanting to be aro/ace. The only sliver lining is I'm so hung up on him that I can't get crushes for anyone else. So at least I'm not getting suicidal over that.

But yeah, I'm sick of this and just waiting for my time.

Sad thing is I was pretty much aro/ace when I was a kid/teen. Like growing up I'd have crushes, but after a while I'd stop caring. And I'd have sexual feelings, but porn was enough for me. Then around 19-20? I started obsessing over the fact I had never had a boyfriend and wanted sex and intimacy. That was the beginning of the end. I wish I could go back.

Pretty much the same as me lmao, I also wasn't really occupied with sexual thoughts in my teenage years, only recently for like the past two years suddenly my brain decided to say that this is the most important thing in my life