Venting I was called a rapist and i believe them

[TealBunny]

Im going through memory loss and was just called a rapist, I dont rmem3b3r what I did or who they wven are, I dont remeber anything but nobody believes me

I deserve this, I have to kill myself now I cant 'improve' after that nobody would lie about something like that

 

[U. A.]

Knowing nothing about you or the situation I think if your memory may return you really should wait. You may or may not have done a bad thing but if you did, that doesn't mean you are forever a bad human. It would be important for the other person to have an apology if something did happen and that can't happen if you're dead.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

People can lie about that (most times if someone does, it's projection in my experience) but whether they lied or not matters less than the fact that you clearly feel guilt.

If it did happen, the first step is to try to figure out what happened. Did the person explain, or just call you a rapist? I see that your profile says "system of some kind." If you mean a plural system, is there another alter there you can ask? Perhaps they have more information/memories than you.

 

[CutToRelease]

Im going through memory loss and was just called a rapist, I dont rmem3b3r what I did or who they wven are, I dont remeber anything but nobody believes me

I deserve this, I have to kill myself now I cant 'improve' after that nobody would lie about something like that

Is there evident to the claim? If not then wait for their to be. One must be convicted before a sentence of death can even be considered. Punish your self if u must if u mind wont let u be in limbo of you potential guilt. But hold out on giving your self a death sentence. Best of luck my fellow forgetful friend.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Not meaning to sound judgemental but were/ are you promiscuous? Did you for instance- regularly get drunk or intoxicated and sleep with random people? It feels like you might be able to ascertain whether their claim might hold weight by thinking about your lifestyle habits. Did you experience lapses of memory in the past and wake up in random places next to strangers?

Of course- they could well be accusing you falsely- malliciously or in error. Do you know them at all? Do they have a grudge against you for some reason? Some men have been accused in error though.

Also- the circumstances I imagine could be suggestive. If they're claiming you just randomly attacked them in public- that could be something you may know for almost positive you didn't do. But- if you were both intoxicated and you got the impression it was consensual then- I don't know. I think the circumstances may inform how likely their story might be.

But- I imagine details might help you remember or know they are lying. Where and when did it happen? Were you even in that place at that time? Did you use contraception? Did they report it to police at the time? Do they have DNA? Is it possible you would have met this person at all? If you feel like you don't even know them, it seems very odd. How could you have met them?

There are scary people who set up hate campaigns against others. Sometimes for no particular reason though. I hope you can resolve the matter.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I guess I could state the obvious; why aren't the police knocking on your door?

Granted that doesn't prove, or disprove anything. Still worth consideration when you have no recollection yourself.

 

[TealBunny]

Not meaning to sound judgemental but were/ are you promiscuous? Did you for instance- regularly get drunk or intoxicated and sleep with random people? It feels like you might be able to ascertain whether their claim might hold weight by thinking about your lifestyle habits. Did you experience lapses of memory in the past and wake up in random places next to strangers?

Of course- they could well be accusing you falsely- malliciously or in error. Do you know them at all? Do they have a grudge against you for some reason? Some men have been accused in error though.

Also- the circumstances I imagine could be suggestive. If they're claiming you just randomly attacked them in public- that could be something you may know for almost positive you didn't do. But- if you were both intoxicated and you got the impression it was consensual then- I don't know. I think the circumstances may inform how likely their story might be.

But- I imagine details might help you remember or know they are lying. Where and when did it happen? Were you even in that place at that time? Did you use contraception? Did they report it to police at the time? Do they have DNA? Is it possible you would have met this person at all? If you feel like you don't even know them, it seems very odd. How could you have met them?

There are scary people who set up hate campaigns against others. Sometimes for no particular reason though. I hope you can resolve the matter.

It looked like we were friends or even closer than than, im not sexually active or drink at all but this is the second occasion sine someone else said I sexually assulted someone. I dont even really go out to hang out let alone with people, everything the past two months (according to them) is completely blurred or gone, sure I remember a few bits but then I just forget again
The only thing I have pointing towards sexual activity with another individual is some form of trauma with feeling disgust and flashes of SOMETHING or how maturation isnt enjoyable at all after the events even before I was called a rapist, I dont know anything else

Knowing nothing about you or the situation I think if your memory may return you really should wait. You may or may not have done a bad thing but if you did, that doesn't mean you are forever a bad human. It would be important for the other person to have an apology if something did happen and that can't happen if you're dead.

I've attempted apologies abs thats why I was called that, there's nothing else I can do and I dont want to force people I hurt to interact or talk with me

Knowing nothing about you or the situation I think if your memory may return you really should wait. You may or may not have done a bad thing but if you did, that doesn't mean you are forever a bad human. It would be important for the other person to have an apology if something did happen and that can't happen if you're dead.

I've attempted apologies abs thats why I was called that, there's nothing else I can do and I dont want to force people I hurt to interact or talk with me

People can lie about that (most times if someone does, it's projection in my experience) but whether they lied or not matters less than the fact that you clearly feel guilt.

If it did happen, the first step is to try to figure out what happened. Did the person explain, or just call you a rapist? I see that your profile says "system of some kind." If you mean a plural system, is there another alter there you can ask? Perhaps they have more information/memories than you.

I've been trying to figure out for apparnalty the past two months and thags all the information ive ever gotten, told I sexually assulted.and now raped someone and still have no recollection, this is confirmation from two people ans I have trouble understanding why anyone would lie about it especially when ive made it so clear I dont remember and have been almost obsessively looking
I dong ewmember my own name or really recongize myself, all I can do is rely on self punishment to try and give some form of retribution with cutting even if I dont even enjoy it and stop talking my antidepressants/meds