I want..

[hoe_for_woe]

I want to cut and burn and twist and tear and hit and kill
I want to kill
I want to kill
I want to kill
Myself? Maybe. Others? Why not..
I just want to feel warm flesh
Please
I need it, I can't breathe. I'm floating aimlessly and I can't breathe.

 

[HangMan123]

It sounds like you need to take a step back and clam down. Killing yourself? Others? This sounds really serious.
Do you have anyone who you can talk to about your feelings?

 

[rs929]

Are you in a crisis now?

Try this:

Inhale through your nose for 4 seconds, gently, without forcing anything.
Hold the breath for 7 seconds; keep it light, not tense.
Exhale through your mouth for 8 seconds, slow and steady.
Repeat this cycle 4 times.
If a dark thought shows up, don't wrestle with it—let it float by while you keep counting.
This won't fix everything, but it gives your nervous system a brief pause.

Another thing can be putting your head under cold water.

There was a crysis section in this forum but I can't find it.

If you are not in a crysis, would you mind telling us whats going on? This is alarming.

 

[hoe_for_woe]

Are you in a crisis now?

Try this:

Inhale through your nose for 4 seconds, gently, without forcing anything.
Hold the breath for 7 seconds; keep it light, not tense.
Exhale through your mouth for 8 seconds, slow and steady.
Repeat this cycle 4 times.
If a dark thought shows up, don't wrestle with it—let it float by while you keep counting.
This won't fix everything, but it gives your nervous system a brief pause.

Another thing can be putting your head under cold water.

There was a crysis section in this forum but I can't find it.

If you are not in a crysis, would you mind telling us whats going on? This is alarming.

It's nothing, just the thoughts circling through my mind. Sometimes more sometimes less. For I don't know how long now. I miss being happy

 

[rs929]

I miss being happy too. If I ever was happy.
I will skip the part about being dangerous to yourself, due to the nature of this place. But if you think you are capable of harming someone else, I'd say definitely talk to someone.
I guess what you're really trying to kill is the pain though. Hope I could do something for you, besides reading you if you want to dump more thoughts