I want to spend my last $800 on a gun

[SummerChristmasEve]

I walked out of my job today and honestly never want to set foot in there again. I can't afford to be out of work for more than a month. I can either spend this money on bills, or I can finally ctb. I think I can get a used handgun for like $300, and maybe ctb in a hotel room. I'm really not wanting to traumatize anyone when finding my body, so some advice on where to do it would be good. Home is not an option but I do have a car.

 

[as i am as am i]

If you're not looking to do it in a public space and ideally dont want to traumatize anyone, doing it in nature has always been my thought. Idk how close nature is to you, but theres quite a lot of abandoned woods near me