I want to leave in peace

[Mt1712]

Hello everyone,

I know this must have been asked hundreds of times, but I'm trying anyway.
I have an incurable disease, and I'm not strong enough to live with it.
But I'm also not very courageous, even though I know I want to end it.
What do you think is the safest and least painful way? I know this is probably a stupid question and has been asked hundreds of times, but I'm trying because I really need help.
Thank you all.

 

[unluckysadness]

Hi, i feel you as I must live with a rare disease too. Doctors say it's incurable and I cannot handle it anymore. But i cannot kill myself now. Survival instinct is too strong. SItuation is getting worse day after day and I know I must leave but it's so unfair !! The least painful way is the "gold standard" pentobarbital, but close to 0% chance to get it. So we're trapped here until there is another peaceful alternative.

May I ask you since how many years you must struggle with this disease ? I struggle since more than 5 years, that's enough. I've suffered all my life and it's time for peace now. I wish you good luck

 

[Mt1712]

Hi, i feel you as I must live with a rare disease too. Doctors say it's incurable and I cannot handle it anymore. But i cannot kill myself now. Survival instinct is too strong. SItuation is getting worse day after day and I know I must leave but it's so unfair !! The least painful way is the "gold standard" pentobarbital, but close to 0% chance to get it. So we're trapped here until there is another peaceful alternative.

May I ask you since how many years you must struggle with this disease ? I struggle since more than 5 years, that's enough. I've suffered all my life and it's time for peace now. I wish you good luck

I'm exactly the same, it's been less than 3 years, but things have deteriorated so quickly that it's reached a point where I suffer mentally every day, I don't live, I survive because I'm afraid of death, but I don't want this life... our stories are very close. I don't know about you, but I loved life, it's an illness that ruined everything

 

[unluckysadness]

I'm exactly the same, it's been less than 3 years, but things have deteriorated so quickly that it's reached a point where I suffer mentally every day, I don't live, I survive because I'm afraid of death, but I don't want this life... our stories are very close. I don't know about you, but I loved life, it's an illness that ruined everything

I've suffered in this life since I was born (I'm 43 now) so I cannot understand what it is to have a happy life. It's always been shitty with so much pain. Severe anxiety ruined my life (it was the beginning of the end...) I wish us some relief if we are not able to ctb right now

 

[Mt1712]

It's the anxiety the culprit of your illness ? For me it s the case

 

[Sweet Tart]

Living with chronic illness is really hard! For so many reasons. And then there are even more reasons on top of that, related specifically to whatever illness it is.

Do you participate in any forums for people with your condition (or for people with chronic illness more generally)? Sometimes having community with others in the same boat is what gets me thru he day.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering, it really sounds like you've suffered so unbearably and it's just so cruel to me how there's all this extreme pain and suffering in existing, I also just wish for peace, peace from this existence is all I want.