Venting I want to hurt myself now

[Hans Voralberg]

Im in such tension that i can't stand it. My mom do pre easter cleaning know and the only that matter for her is that guests will see that my room is not 100% vaccumed. I am in such pain that i i didn't have strenght for proper cleaning even thinking is hard now. I have to cut myself. God i need it to think and function normal. I will literally do it in the night. I hit myself to the knee and i feel better feeling the warm from bruise spread through my body but it is not enough. How the hell i would cleaning my room to the point of sterile in this stage

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be unbearable being in so much pain. I'm sorry that you are going through this. I hope you find relief from your suffering in whatever happens.

 

[meetapple]

I am sorry that your mom doesn't understand your pain.