One minute you have everything you could ever want in life with a bright future and the next via a series of unfortunate events you lose it all and can never bring it back. Life is cruel like that huh? For me I was a very creative and intelligent kid who had it all. I did have some mental health issues but they were manageable. But after taking a medrol dosepak(Methylprednisolone.) my life was never the same. I'm not the same person I was before and I REFUSE to go on medication to stabilize myself as I don't want any meds to fuck up my brain and take away my creativity, imagination and overall intelligence. I unfortunately can't use my brain though due to a sinus issue and I can't sleep it off due to extreme emotional stress/distress thanks to the steroid. So I'm not sleeping a lot either. I want to know if anyone ever experienced such a thing in life to where one minute you have it all and the next minute you develop SEVERE debilitating mental health issues you've never had previously that ultimately make you want to end you life?
I was going to be a novelist and writer-film director. I wanted to be both since I couldn't decide between one or the other and there are some people who are able to do both anyways so I decided "eh what the hell? Why not do and become both!" Idk if I'm allowed to post my short story here since it's very graphic and violent but it was essentially a metaphor for depression and like I said even before the steroids I did struggle somewhat with mental health issues and whatnot but it was FAR more easier then than it is and or will ever be now… it was a horror short story btw!
TLDR: life's a cruel bitch that won't let you ever get comfortable or happy and with whatever you have now you better cherish it now because you never know when you'll lose it or everything you'll ever know and love… I was writing a horror short story that was a sort of dark fairytale and now I won't ever be able to finish it due to cognitive impairments and also two novels I was writing. And I won't be able to be a filmmaker/film director too… I want to also know if anyone else has ever lost everything they've ever known and loved and have their mental health go from manageable to suddenly unbearable due to medicine mainly or something else entirely…
I was going to be a novelist and writer-film director. I wanted to be both since I couldn't decide between one or the other and there are some people who are able to do both anyways so I decided "eh what the hell? Why not do and become both!" Idk if I'm allowed to post my short story here since it's very graphic and violent but it was essentially a metaphor for depression and like I said even before the steroids I did struggle somewhat with mental health issues and whatnot but it was FAR more easier then than it is and or will ever be now… it was a horror short story btw!
TLDR: life's a cruel bitch that won't let you ever get comfortable or happy and with whatever you have now you better cherish it now because you never know when you'll lose it or everything you'll ever know and love… I was writing a horror short story that was a sort of dark fairytale and now I won't ever be able to finish it due to cognitive impairments and also two novels I was writing. And I won't be able to be a filmmaker/film director too… I want to also know if anyone else has ever lost everything they've ever known and loved and have their mental health go from manageable to suddenly unbearable due to medicine mainly or something else entirely…
