Venting i want to die

[sleepydeaths]

nothing my friends say to try and make me feel better works
I can't stop cutting and self harming
I can't stop spiraling
people are worried
It feels like i say the same thing and get the same responses. It's nobody's fault but my own
This is all my fault
Maybe this is punishment for some sort of past life
The night has been horrible and i just want to make myself hurt
i just want to cry
i admitted that my friends words were making me feel worse and she hasn't responded
i understand but it hurts idk what i want
i don't want to be alone but nothing people say to comfort me works
i want to kill myself i don't want to suffer like this i want to make myself hurt everything always hurts why does it always have to fucking hurt
i just want to cry
i admitted that my friends words were making me feel worse and she hasn't responded
i understand but it hurts idk what i want
i don't want to be alone but nothing people say to comfort me works
i want to kill myself i don't want to suffer like this i want to make myself hurt everything always hurts why does it always have to fucking hurt