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- Sep 14, 2023
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When I need to talk to someone, my body betrays me. My hands tremble, my voice stutters, and I feel cold sweat running down my skin. Every word is a struggle, every conversation is a battlefield where I lose, not to others, but to myself.
Entering an elevator with someone else is a nightmare. My heart races, my chest tightens, and I feel like I can't breathe. There's no escape, no way to avoid the overwhelming sense that something terrible is about to happen, even when nothing is actually wrong.
Panic attacks are the worst. It's like I'm being suffocated from the inside, as if the world is collapsing around me and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I have intrusive thoughts almost all the time. They come without warning, invading my mind with images and ideas that make no sense, that are the opposite of who I really am. They make me question my own sanity.
And when I try to sleep, it's as if my mind decides to torture me even more. The most embarrassing moments, the worst memories of my life, rise to the surface and torment me. I relive every mistake, every failure, every humiliation as if it's happening again, and it keeps me from resting, leaving me with insomnia.
I just want to be human, like everyone else. Why do I have to carry this unbearable weight that drives me away from others, that makes me feel so different, so broken? I want to be human, but sometimes it feels like I'm just a shadow, a distorted version of myself, trapped in an endless cycle of anxiety and emptiness.
Entering an elevator with someone else is a nightmare. My heart races, my chest tightens, and I feel like I can't breathe. There's no escape, no way to avoid the overwhelming sense that something terrible is about to happen, even when nothing is actually wrong.
Panic attacks are the worst. It's like I'm being suffocated from the inside, as if the world is collapsing around me and there's nothing I can do to stop it.
I have intrusive thoughts almost all the time. They come without warning, invading my mind with images and ideas that make no sense, that are the opposite of who I really am. They make me question my own sanity.
And when I try to sleep, it's as if my mind decides to torture me even more. The most embarrassing moments, the worst memories of my life, rise to the surface and torment me. I relive every mistake, every failure, every humiliation as if it's happening again, and it keeps me from resting, leaving me with insomnia.
I just want to be human, like everyone else. Why do I have to carry this unbearable weight that drives me away from others, that makes me feel so different, so broken? I want to be human, but sometimes it feels like I'm just a shadow, a distorted version of myself, trapped in an endless cycle of anxiety and emptiness.
