I think today is the day

[darkandtwisty]

After another sleepless night of feeling lost and a mixture of so many thoughts and other emotions, I can no longer see passed it. I can't imagine tomorrow; it doesn't exist. Not for me. I have gotten to the point of staying hurts more than the idea of going.

My method was going to be fent but I was unable to secure it so instead, I'm going with FSH. I will have approximately 11 hours to myself starting 2pm eastern time. In that time, I'll write and post a note on my door for my ex to inform him of what's on the other side. Then I'll write the official goodbye. I'll feed and take care of my animals. They're honestly all I have left.

I might post again before hand but I don't know if I will. I'm kind of in an emotionless mindset and I have detached from myself.

 

[darksouls]

however you decide,
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you deserve

 

[joey2424]

I'm sorry you're feeling so hopeless right now. I can relate to the idea of staying hurting more than going. I wish you didn't feel that way too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[itsgone2]

I might post again before hand but I don't know if I will. I'm kind of in an emotionless mindset and I have detached from myself.

I'm so sorry you've gotten to this point. I hope you find relief in whatever you decide.

 

[doomedbynarrative]

I'm sorry you've been struggling for so long. No matter what happens I hope you find peace.

 

[rigsid]

I hope you find peace. I'm also in your headspace so while anyone dying is sad I deeply understand.