I think it's about time

[Dukey]

I'm going to commit tonight,
Just took a Xanax bar to calm the nerves.

Gonna spend an hour or so to listen to some music while crushing up the remaining pills while reflecting on my life.

then when it's quiet and the benzos have numbed all my emotions, I'm gonna boof the remaining 600 to 800 mg of fentanyl i have.

Hopefully I'll embrace the abyss peacefully.

 

[zdeweilx]

I hope you find peace whatever you do

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find freedom from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[Dukey]

it's time before the benzos make me to sleepy.
i just took everything, might take 5-10 min before it kicks in

if i don't update this post within 24 hours pretty much means i was succesfull
take a full week to be sure if i'm found and don't have access to a phone

it's been a pleasure, i hope that whatever your decisions might be, whether to commit or to keep on living
i wish each and everyone of you nothing but peace.

 

[kurgan]

All the best Dukey

 

[Cyrene]

Good luck I hope you find some peace

 

[Dukey]

To my utmost disappointment
I'm still alive, woke up two days after the fact.

Dehydrated full of pain, and my floor full of vomit.

My mother was so concerned, she basically forced a confession out of me. I'm at the ER right now. Got my blood and urine taken.

Waiting for an psychiatrist now.
Maybe i should see this as a sign to just keep on living. I genuinely don't know how I'm even still alive.

 

[Exhausted546]

To my utmost disappointment
I'm still alive, woke up two days after the fact.

Dehydrated full of pain, and my floor full of vomit.

My mother was so concerned, she basically forced a confession out of me. I'm at the ER right now. Got my blood and urine taken.

Waiting for an psychiatrist now.
Maybe i should see this as a sign to just keep on living. I genuinely don't know how I'm even still alive.

You woke up and called your mom? Do they have you on suicide watch RN? You slept for 48h?
Yeah I read on here on how ODs don't often work

 

[Fabi_2312]

To my utmost disappointment
I'm still alive, woke up two days after the fact.

Dehydrated full of pain, and my floor full of vomit.

My mother was so concerned, she basically forced a confession out of me. I'm at the ER right now. Got my blood and urine taken.

Waiting for an psychiatrist now.
Maybe i should see this as a sign to just keep on living. I genuinely don't know how I'm even still alive.

If you feel like its a sign, it means that your mind knows there is a way to get better, so take it. Keep on living, even If its just for the next months where you will be helped and monitored.
I hope you will find freedom soon. <3