Venting I think I love her! So I will let her go

[lost_one]

I think I love her, I can say it out loud now because it doesn't matter anymore, but I will never get to say it to her, cause it would be to too selfish to cruel, it would only hurt her more.

There sre so many places I wanted to take her, so many thing I wanted to do with her. I hate myself. I am going to miss you so much, for so long.

I have to let her go, I need to stop torturing her, that what called it, torture. It's not her fault and she didn't say it to be mean, she is too afraid to let go. So I will be the villan, for her I will be the villan, so she can let go of me and move on with her life. And find someone who will love her the way she want's and needs.

I have this stupid passenger song stuck in my head - Let her go.

And I can't tell anyone, no one would understand, not even my stupid therapist, I've only known her for a little over two months how can I love her? I don't know and hell maybe I am wrong, I have never loved or been loved in my life... but I think it's love and that is what matters to me right now. Cause in my head I've known for a while now, I just couldn't admit it.

God I wish I was dead, cause it hurts so much. I am never going to see her again. She was the only good thing in my life.

"And my soul...shall be lifted - never more."

 

[Dejected 55]

I understand this too much. I am sorry for you. I am being driven to my own suicide because of this exact kind of situation, though.

 

[lil dwayne]

Been there mate, I regreat letting her go more then anything else ive ever done or will do. If you can, you should fight to be with her, its better.

 

[Wolf Girl]

You can love someone after 2 months. It's just a strong emotion, there aren't any particular requirements for it to be real. I'm so sorry that you feel like you can't be with the person you love.