Venting i suffer from the second i wake up

[SufferingInDenmark]

when you have more bad days than good,
and it has been like that for many years,
even tho you tried to fix it;
it might be time to end it all soon.

one of the few good things that cheer me up in life are both "bad" for me.
food and sex.
obviously sex isn't bad, but i have to be with a hooker at least twice a month in order for me to feel somewhat happy.
and delicious food cheers me up a lot too, but then i feel like absolute shit the next day from whatever MSG they add to it.
healthy delicious food does exist, but either it's twice as expensive, or it's a fucking hassle to cook.
especially with depression.

i hate the world and all the suffering in it.
innocent people getting tortured... wars... gangs... drugs...

and the food and sex thing is far from all of my problems, it's just what weighs heavy on my heart in this very moment.

 

[ihatemyself2025]

SAME HERE. I UNDERSTAND

 

[Knoc]

I've suffer daily for the last 7 to 8 years straight , no breaks.

My own mind is always trying to get me, sometimes i feel like i live with my worst enemy inside me who enjoys torturing me endlessly.