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SpiderMolt

SpiderMolt

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Jun 10, 2024
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I know the meds I take are helpful, they help me manage my ADHD and help prevent me from having episodes or spiraling. I know they make my life somewhat easier. But sometimes I just wanna stop. Yeah, taking pills everyday is pretty annoying, but that's not why I wanna stop. I want to let myself lose control, to be able to go through episodes even though I always end up hating how I feel. I want to feel as if I'm experiencing every emotion and numbness at the same time. I want to start spiraling out of control, eventually getting lost in my own mental chaos. I want to hate how I feel, yet love it at the same time.

Sometimes I'll skip them for a few days, but always less than a week. I just want to stop, but I know that's a really bad idea. I'm not gonna give in to the urges, I just wanted to talk about them.
 
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