I ran away from home and want to kms

[pop_panic]

I'm 19 and have a toxic family. I tried to bear it for a long time thinking once I get a job after college I can leave (they r Christians n homophobic n abusive (like my dad threatened to tie my up in a room to die) while im atheist n support lgbtq) But now it went too far they suddenly changed their mind abt me going to college in 2nd year, physically abused me, took my laptop and almost took my phone saying they don't want me to have any devices, so i packed and ran away at night. I tried sleeping in a bench, and even after trying multiple times couldn't find a shelter nearby using the helplines with transportation help. Even if I got help it's like restarting and it's probably gonna suck at the shelter anyway. Anyways I'm thinking of kms so any ideas? Mb hanging (I've rope I hope it doesn't break), there's a lake but it's far by walk especially considering I barely have food n not sure if I wud succeed drowning (water cud be really cold). Or I could just try starving but I don't want to be saved. I do have Tylenol n Advil mb it cud help with si. Or mb if I could find a suicide buddy (Washington state)

 

[R. A.]

jesus christ (no pun intended) this is a rough read. emergency resources are often frustratingly strained; a quick look is turning up these. maybe one of them would be new and available to you:

OHY Resources for Youth and Young Adults

www.commerce.wa.gov

Housing Options or Shelter

www.seattleymca.org

Community Resources — ROOTS Young Adult Shelter

rootsinfo.org

last one is a long list

https://www.reachtacoma.org/wp-content/uploads/REACH-Resources-List.pdf

even if you decide to die you deserve to not be sleeping on a damn bench in the meantime...

 

[whywere]

I 100% 2nd what @R. A. said, he is totally on spot.

I was kicked out the day after I turned 18 with a bag of my clothes, NO money, NO food, NO nothing, and I KNOW the situation.

I hope and pray that you can find some state or private resources to help, as you are TOO valuable and I need you here.

You are a WONDERFUL person and never let anyone tell you differently ever.

Walter

 

[Worndown]

211 might help
You seem to be less homeless and more refugee!
It seems to be time to start a new life. Your state has resources. Use them all if you can.

OHY Resources for Youth and Young Adults

www.commerce.wa.gov