I failed at getting a nitrogen bottle yesterday. I spent all night and this morning regretting my choice, crying, and generally hating existence. I drove back to the place today and forced myself into the social interaction and got my nitrogen bottle. I just need to get a regulator and barbed fitting now. I read some stuff that using a rebreather mask can have leaks and cause brain injury rather than exit. I think I'm going to put a bag over my head along with the rebreather just to be extra sure. I did get a good seal with my mask and it forms a vacuum when inhaling, but opens on the side when exhaling. I'm sure it would be fine, but I really can't risk failure. I had a friend tell me a story of a really hard time they survived and it made me feel like I could too, but then life came right back around to remind me and I don't really know where I want to go now.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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What did your friend tell you about surviving?
what went wrong for them?
did they have any injuries?
They didn't really tell me anything about surviving, but they had an almost 1-1 comparison to my situation. They tried to kill themselves, but just ended up in the hospital. They told me how they got through and it gave me some strength.
