I'm a 21 year old guy, I am fed up with being physically and mentally deformed, I can't deal with another day of this humiliation and I despise my parents extremely, but I need to make sure my mother has her own house before I cbt, the problem is that I am a fuck up, I didn't go to college after highschool and I feel like I can't function, but I have to make enough to buy her a house, not mortgage, I hate her but it's an obligation, and then I'd just drive to a motel and do the method I considered, I am 21, so I am too old to be stalling, I am not going to be in this planet when I'm 25 years old, no way
