I need to leave this earth

[shlifeit]

I NEED to go. I can't do this another day. Every minute is torture. I can't bare myself to hang myself, the feeling is disgusting. I was thinking about mixing oxy + benzos + perhaps alcohol but even that doesn't seem like a safe bet. Why does it have to be so hard to leave this shitty life?

 

[darksouls]

I am so sorry you are suffering so much
wish you the best
hope you find the relief you search for

 

[unluckysadness]

it's so difficult because of this fucking SI. It's incredibly strong...

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I always find it so torturous and dreadful to exist and all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a guaranteed peaceful death to finally escape from the pain and suffering of existing, I see so much cruelty in how it's so difficult to be free from this existence I never would had chosen, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[numbeyesopen26]

me too

 

[matt.7890]

I am in a similar situation as well.. Have been suffering for almost 5 years with multiple psych ward stays and therapies - none of this helped, it is only getting worse. Have been reading this forum for a while and just recently created my profile.

You seem to be very desperate based on the tone of your message but I would suggest to stay as calm as possible (I know it is so f hard) and prepare yourself following the guidelines on this forum. Fingers crossed for you whatever decision you take

 

[ultradespair]

Can relate on the hanging part, wish there was a button that I could press to make it my last day on this earth.

 

[J&L383]

Can relate on the hanging part, wish there was a button that I could press to make it my last day on this earth.

Still looking for that magic button.

 

[Alexandra0]

Yes. This existence is a real torture. The instinct of self-preservation is a strong thing, but it can be overcome. I am sorry that you have to endure so much torment every day. I also suffer a lot and want peace, peace, only peace

Still looking for that magic button.

I have this button - the trigger. But I can't press it, although I know perfectly well that there will be instant death

 

[kopebaldy]

Still looking for that magic button.

Well that button exists, they just make it super hard to access lol.