I might have leukemia or another blood cancer and I'm relieved strangely.

[satanpixidreamgirl]

Since about April my lymph nodes have been swollenand I lost about 18 pounds I've been prevent from being seen for it, my parents won't take me to the doctors for ailments, I only get to see my specialist most of the time and I cannot drive myself. I finally I got to go once for this and the nurse at the urgent care clinic said "yeah, you're platelets look all out of whack girl, teehee" and then doing nothing about it. And I'm so frustrated with doctors I didn't do anything either, there aren't many other places to go being in a rural area. I finally decided after falling asleep in the shower do something about it this month and beg my parents to take me to the doctors and they're really mad at me, they switch between "it seems serious" or "its probably nothing, you're a fucking idiot" depending on if they're randomly mad at me. The doctors office I made my appointment with is taking it seriously. I hope it is leukemia so I can refuse all treatment and die. If I did get treated they would complain about the cost anyways.

 

[drag201]

I hope you're at least not in a lot of pain physically, but I understand your point. At least you would be going "naturally". I hope everything can go well for you and if dying is what you really want that you don't go through a lot of pain because if you have any serious illnesses it can be awful, treatment or not. Best wishes

 

[riamu]

cancer seems like a painful way out - if the worst happens then i hope you get prescribed the good stuff so you're not in pain when you go. and i'm sorry that your parents fucking suck :/

 

[outrider567]

I hope you're at least not in a lot of pain physically, but I understand your point. At least you would be going "naturally". I hope everything can go well for you and if dying is what you really want that you don't go through a lot of pain because if you have any serious illnesses it can be awful, treatment or not. Best wishes

What's your platelets number?

 

[indefinitesleep]

Hope your parents cop on and help you get to the bottom of if you have it, Im sure its painful and uncomfortable dying from cancer so getting atleast something to relieve the suffering would be good,
whatever decision you choose to take regarding if you treat it or not I hope its as comfortable as can be.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel relief at the thought of an permanent end to the suffering, but anyway best wishes.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Sounds strange that an urgent care clinic wouldn't do anything. It doesn't make any sense, given that's what they do there. Why would they not take it seriously? Unless they think it isn't serious, after having tests done.

What makes you think you have blood cancer? That's quite a stretch, given swollen lymph nodes are usually due to some sort of infection, (doctors have told me this) when I have needed to go for a check up when swollen lymph nodes (infection) won't go by itself. Also, it's common knowledge (not sure if you're aware though).

I noticed you mentioned your parents, they sound really shitty tbh - are you able to move out and rent a room somewhere? I'm not sure where you live, but there are places that can help in the UK.

Whatever it is, I hope it eases for you

 

[satanpixidreamgirl]

Sounds strange that an urgent care clinic wouldn't do anything. It doesn't make any sense, given that's what they do there. Why would they not take it seriously? Unless they think it isn't serious, after having tests done.

What makes you think you have blood cancer? That's quite a stretch, given swollen lymph nodes are usually due to some sort of infection, (doctors have told me this) when I have needed to go for a check up when swollen lymph nodes (infection) won't go by itself. Also, it's common knowledge (not sure if you're aware though).

I noticed you mentioned your parents, they sound really shitty tbh - are you able to move out and rent a room somewhere? I'm not sure where you live, but there are places that can help in the UK.

Whatever it is, I hope it eases for you

I live in the rural us, not the uk. This clinic usually just wants to get to the next patient no matter what, I know other people with bad experiences who've stopped going there as well, my friend was in the early stages of hypertension and the told him he was just having anxiety and to calm down, they told another friend of mine with mental illness to just pray it off.
My lymph nodes have been swollen for four months straight along with an extreme weight loss, strange bleeding, my back is hurting, feelings more tired and because the town near only has three clinics and I've sort of given up on doctors, This for the most part what health care is like in the states especially if you are broke.

 

[ropearoundatree]

I live in the rural us, not the uk. This clinic usually just wants to get to the next patient no matter what, I know other people with bad experiences who've stopped going there as well, my friend was in the early stages of hypertension and the told him he was just having anxiety and to calm down, they told another friend of mine with mental illness to just pray it off.
My lymph nodes have been swollen for four months straight along with an extreme weight loss, strange bleeding, my back is hurting, feelings more tired and because the town near only has three clinics and I've sort of given up on doctors, This for the most part what health care is like in the states especially if you are broke.

You want to request to be seen by: a GP/PCP; then a Hematologist/oncologist. So they can take a good look at you... "Hopefully," that can happen - & so you can find up what is up with your situation, & your condition. Best wishes, and kind regards~

 

[outrider567]

I live in the rural us, not the uk. This clinic usually just wants to get to the next patient no matter what, I know other people with bad experiences who've stopped going there as well, my friend was in the early stages of hypertension and the told him he was just having anxiety and to calm down, they told another friend of mine with mental illness to just pray it off.
My lymph nodes have been swollen for four months straight along with an extreme weight loss, strange bleeding, my back is hurting, feelings more tired and because the town near only has three clinics and I've sort of given up on doctors, This for the most part what health care is like in the states especially if you are broke.

Whats your platelets number?

 

[satanpixidreamgirl]

Whats your platelets number?

Don't know, she didn't give me that information that's why I'm not going to that clinc anymore, she just kinda spoke at me fast, she just said "they where down, it looked bad". and I asked what she meant and she said something like "They're all outta whack" I could go get my records from that clinc but I don't see the point in paying for them especially when I'm getting a second opinion.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I live in the rural us, not the uk. This clinic usually just wants to get to the next patient no matter what, I know other people with bad experiences who've stopped going there as well, my friend was in the early stages of hypertension and the told him he was just having anxiety and to calm down, they told another friend of mine with mental illness to just pray it off.
My lymph nodes have been swollen for four months straight along with an extreme weight loss, strange bleeding, my back is hurting, feelings more tired and because the town near only has three clinics and I've sort of given up on doctors, This for the most part what health care is like in the states especially if you are broke.

I'm so sorry, I had no idea how bad it is over there, that's so fucked. I thought it was bad here, if you're a woman you're more than likely to be told it's a anxiety, especially if you have a history of mental health issues.

That is fucking horrific treatment, it is absolutely shocking. So what can you do? Go elsewhere/get a second opinion? You really need to get seen ASAP.

 

[outrider567]

Don't know, she didn't give me that information that's why I'm not going to that clinc anymore, she just kinda spoke at me fast, she just said "they where down, it looked bad". and I asked what she meant and she said something like "They're all outta whack" I could go get my records from that clinc but I don't see the point in paying for them especially when I'm getting a second opinion.

A complete blood count will answer all your questions, any ER will do it, and the results will come back within hours--They'll check everything, Platelets, red blood cells, hemoglobin, white blood cells, protein levels, albumin, creatine, etc--good luck to you--Remember that even serious diseases like Hodgkins Lymphoma are quite treatable, 10 year survival rate is 75%, and Ryan O'neal had leukemia and he lived more than 20 years

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

Hey,
Kind of funny, seems like we're in the same boat. I've got very hard lymph nodes in my neck and groin and at least one of them has been slowly growing for at least 3 months now. Also got the weight loss and am getting more and more tired, even my hair is falling out, which just shows me that I'm seriously ill. Been to the doctor, it's not an infection and have now been referred to a haematologist.
But this recent development is the reason I'm back on here. There is no way I could or would want to go through treatment. I've had to endure enough suffering, I was giving life one last chance, but it has gotten me nowhere. So now I just feel ready to leave this horrid place.

 

[itsover090]

I had Hodgkin's Lymphoma, blood count does not detect the disease, a PET scan is needed for that
Sry bad english