I might attempt tonight.

[blowmybrainzout]

I am not sure if I would consider this a goodbye thread because as much as I want to die asap, I still feel like I would back out last minute.

I just can't continue anymore, everything is piling up, and I'm failing in everything. if you've seen my previous threads, my main method is really just hanging, either partial or full suspension. I already have a place I believe I could tie my rope from. I really don't have any other choices except go through with it.

if anyone has some tips, please do give. Just no drinking before doing it stuff. maybe just to stop overthinking with it, Idk anymore. I'm sorry if this thread is such a mess.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[dalemar]

Sending love. I hope you find the peace you deserve!

 

[kufajoy]

Hope you find peace
If failed come back to us once again. All the best

 

[blowmybrainzout]

Thank you everyone, I do wish for it to really work. I plan to do it at exactly 12 am, I still have a couple more hours.

I have to say, I'm really struggling with the rope and getting it to tighten on my carotid arteries. I'm still trying to get it right. I've struggled with this before, and that's why I didn't go through with it then, but I really don't have another option right now.

 

[lovelove416]

My advice is to put serious thought into your method.

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

Just be sure not to push through the urge to "back out" so hard that you half-ass your method.

I know the feeling if everything piling up, I'm sorry life's pushing you to the brink. I hope things get better, whatever that may entail.

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I hope everything goes well for you
and you find the peace you desire

 

[Defect]

so i suddenly decided to comeback to this forum today after longer while just scrolling posts until i found yours

well i don't know if i have advice but since you going with hanging i would only say that you should rethink method well uh im here on this side because of my heavy disability paralyze from neck below ventilator breathing and though my injury wasn't made after hanging attempt went wrong i heard you can find yourself in the condition like mine and this is really shit saying the least. so take time with method

 

[Terrible_Life]

I am not sure if I would consider this a goodbye thread because as much as I want to die asap, I still feel like I would back out last minute.

I just can't continue anymore, everything is piling up, and I'm failing in everything. if you've seen my previous threads, my main method is really just hanging, either partial or full suspension. I already have a place I believe I could tie my rope from. I really don't have any other choices except go through with it.

if anyone has some tips, please do give. Just no drinking before doing it stuff. maybe just to stop overthinking with it, Idk anymore. I'm sorry if this thread is such a mess.

i tried to hang myself last Friday and trust me I have all the reasons to die my life is a nightmare but unfortunately in that moment while having the noose on my neck tightened I was so afraid and honestly I was fooled by si which manipulated me into thinking maybe a change will come….well nothing has come it's all much worse now but my point is in that moment irrationality kicked in so be aware of that and yes when I attempt again I will definitely do it without any alcohol.
For me it was even difficult to build the damn set up because of huge anxiety I thought all the time some knot is wrong completely irrational bullshit considering the fact I learned the knots 1000x but well that's si
I'd recommend practice hanging so you know what will happen and also if you can sit down chill and think one final time about your life and why you want to ctb then make the final decision and stay fully behind it.
And of course I hope you have a strong safe anchor point and nobody will interrupt you.