Venting I lost the only person that mattered to me

[deep-sleeper]

I lost her and it's entirely my fault

My constant neediness, emotional unpredictability, lack of filters, reassurance-seeking, ruminations, jealousy and just overall obsessiveness made her finally leave me

Depending on how the next few interactions with her go(we are basically barely-no-contact now). I think I will just ctb this month or the next one. Not only because I don't think I can just be alone again, but I also don't want her to be continuously hurt by me

 

[frayed]

your emotion dysregulation and insecure attachment style cannot be entirely your fault. arguably you could have done better, possibly with some help and intention. we gotta admit though that relationships or friendships or whatever sort of -ships can be kinda difficult when we carry that sort of fragility. still, we can get better. it's been done before. be kind to yourself in the meantime if you can. you deserve it.