I like nothing

[Zaphkiel]

Hello

I look forward to nothing.
I play a bit of vidéo games to kill the time because it's the only thing catching my attention enough for now.
My home cinéma sits un used.
I have no passion since I am born and as I am almost 40 now It seems like my tolérance has Come down to zéro.
40y again of wanting to do nothing is like hell on earth.
I have everything but i dont know if I can do it especially with my parents and my cat
AM I the only one liking nothing ?

 

[Lamentice]

I can relate a bit. I used to have pretty intense passions and hobbies, but the past 5-6 years I have pretty much felt nothing about anything & it only gets worse. Not only am I dull now, but worsening apathy is turning me amoral. I would like to feel concerned, but I just can't seem to find it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, I just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this torturous, dreadful existence and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, to me existence is the most dreadful, futile burden that just causes suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, non-existence is just all I could see as positive and desirable, I wish that more than anything I never suffered, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how humans impose this existence causing all this harm and suffering as a result.

 

[violetforever]

even if i enjoy something i know it's pointless so it kinda ruins it…yeah

 

[eggsausagerice]

even if i enjoy something i know it's pointless so it kinda ruins it…yeah

even if i play video games or watch shows/movies, literally none of it feels like it matters. i know i'm really just doing it so i don't start having suicidal thoughts bc i'm not distracted by something. the thought that i'll get depressed if i don't have something occupying me makes me feel like laying in bed instead, because that'd be the same thing for me mentally. i really can't understand people with genuine passions or interests, because it all went down the drain and i'm just a husk of myself. everything just becomes so boring eventually.

 

[violetforever]

even if i play video games or watch shows/movies, literally none of it feels like it matters. i know i'm really just doing it so i don't start having suicidal thoughts bc i'm not distracted by something. the thought that i'll get depressed if i don't have something occupying me makes me feel like laying in bed instead, because that'd be the same thing for me mentally. i really can't understand people with genuine passions or interests, because it all went down the drain and i'm just a husk of myself. everything just becomes so boring eventually.

i can still get lost in a tv show or film but i'm also aware that it's just for distraction or boredom in my life. sometimes while i'm watching or after it's over i'm like "this is kind of depressing…my entire days are spent just watching other people? fictional people in fictional worlds?"

all i ever do is lay in bed listening to music. not even because i want to constantly listen to music, it's mostly to block out noise from the unbearable living situation i'm in. i don't have much motivation for interests or passions living like this either. i've tried but it gets ruined from how hard it is to ignore how unhappy and restricted i feel being here.