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Crematoryy

Crematoryy

Wandering endlessly
Feb 12, 2025
164
Did a loved one come to visit you today? Someone who depends on you? We know what it's like to feel alone. Every December will carry the same weight.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
636
Did a loved one come to visit you today? Someone who depends on you? We know what it's like to feel alone. Every December will carry the same weight.
I felt so lost today….forgotten by the world just a little light slowly vanishing…gone with the wind :(
 
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catsalvation

catsalvation

Member
Sep 13, 2025
81
Noone. 1 person wished Merry Christmas.
I posted stupid comments on TikTok all day just to feel some kind of human contact.
 
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niki wonoto

Experienced
Oct 10, 2019
232
at least I've just spent my time with family (& some friends), but yes i do still feel alone because i'm still single (for three years already), while seeing/watching so many 'happy couples' out there...
 
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LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
125
Did a loved one come to visit you today? Someone who depends on you? We know what it's like to feel alone. Every December will carry the same weight.
No. no one visited me. Only my one friend wished me a merry Christmas at midnight.

"Oh, yeah. it's Christmas. I hate this day"
"Why?"
"Idk, people celebrate"

Saying that it's because I'm completely alone on this day while everyone has fun with their families would feel embarassing.
I wish to fall asleep and never wake up.
 
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AngelTear

AngelTear

Dead before 30
Oct 27, 2025
179
I never had holidays/birthdays because my family are Jehovah's witnesses...
Super isolating my whole life

Even made friends but they never invited me to celebrate with them - they never cared, they know I'm not in the faith and me celebrating with them wouldn't be a big deal...It sucked so much seeing them on social media celebrating with others and completely forgetting about when I've known them since we were children and then never ever contacting me after a certain point, again, THEY NEVER FUCKING CARED ABOUT ME
And I know people grow apart but GODDAMN
Honestly atp I'm more annoyed that everything is closed on Christmas...
 
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yuan-A04

yuan-A04

a person?
Nov 24, 2025
5
Did a loved one come to visit you today? Someone who depends on you? We know what it's like to feel alone. Every December will carry the same weight.
Thanks, i really apreciate it, i just came to vent and seeing someone that understands this makes me feel a littke better
 
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fruitninjamaster

fruitninjamaster

I love the high of choking myself
Dec 21, 2025
74
Surrounded by people I love but sitting on a ctb forum, 🎶alone again🎶
 
OzymandiAsh

OzymandiAsh

aNoMaLy
Nov 6, 2025
387
All my nights are already difficult. I don't mind the difficulty. :)
 
NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay ⋅ he/him
Nov 21, 2024
736
Thank you 🫂

May I ask who "we" means in this specific message?
 

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